Regret

I missed riding on your back when I was once a little girl,

You were my best storyteller,
You held me firmly when I was learning my first steps,
Daddy, I missed your callous hands.

You were my saviour when I was drowning,
Every time I think of you I felt lacking.
You taught me to hold on to every suffering.
Words are not enough to convey my feelings.

Daddy from you, I learned my first ABC's,
and from you, I counted my first 123's.
A mentor, a friend and a father you played all in one,
a good character you displayed to everyone.

I promised to repay you when I become lucky,
But father forgive me,
of all the sacrifices that you did to me
I failed you, I had lost my way.

But Dad why oh why did you leave me so early?
I was still on my way but you left me already.
You didn't give me a chance to hug you tight,
No last words before you depart.

I wished you were here to play with my children,
the way you taught me, introduce it to them.
I dreamed you stayed longer
for me, to have a sensible counsellor.

You've been a good father to me,
I will cherish you in my memory.
In my dreams, I wanted to catch a glimpse of you dear father,
I wish you stayed more longer.

You left me with an emptiness in my heart.
I will always live with it even when we are apart.
I take it as tremendous contrition when I wasn't by your side,
In your last breath, I wasn't able to hold your hand.

I'm sorry my dear father,
I will carry my regrets in my grave forever.
eventually, hoping I will be with you one more time so,
I can make it up to you the things in which I failed you.

Words aren't enough to express how I feel inside,
but at least in these phrases, I released my emotions in my heart and mind.
Through this, I can convey my message
to a father, I can no longer embrace.

>Xzeon<

After I wrote my article to @Eirolfeam2, my memories brought me to my childhoood once again. I attempted to write an article about my dad few months back but i wasn't ready to go back to my past. Maybe I was slowly recuperating from that memory now.