My memorable conflict experience

As we have heard lately,that there is a war against Russia and Ukraine which really caused problem with the people therein,and it will affect us all.Some of the overseas filipino workers have asked for helped with the DFA(Department of foreign affairs),to give them safety and helping them going back to our country.

Speaking of war,I'm gonna share with you today my experience with war when I was a kid.

• At the age of 6

We lived in the province where there is a history of war with Philippine Army and CPP-NPA,even before I was born.Here in our barrio,there is a soldier camp ,built since 1996,until now there are soldiers who used to stay here and cafgu.

I can still remember ,at 6 'o clock in the evening year 1996,when I and my friend,go to my grandmother's house,a few meters away from our home to watch "Tv show,which I think it's "wansapanataym because it's Sunday ",and their television was black and white.And then we need to used a handy fan to make it cool and even punch it when the picture on the tv disappeared,hehe.When the tv show has started,and we are all facing in front of it,we heard that there was a sound of a gunfire a just few meters from my grandma's house.So,we panic and running anywhere,my grandmother and her husband have jumped on the ground and crawl to find a place to hide.While me and my friend was crying and called "mama",hehe and then we run going home,we didn't noticed that were not having our sleeper's ,.We cannot run through the road because a lot of people are in there and the firing between the two groups is continuing.I ran towards the grasses and I didn't even feel the thorns from the bush that I stepped in.I saw some parents on the road running to find their children,while my parents didn't even find me,my heart beats too fast but I keep on running until I get home.I saw my mama and papa outside the house,and they saw me exhausted,but they didn't even say anything ,they just say,"that's what will happened with a child who never sleep early during the night".My two brothers were not at home , but my father didn't find them,because he is confident that they are also hiding.Our parents have trained us in early age to stand on our own.

That night there were a lot of cafgu who were killed.After the war,we are often sleepless at night because we are waiting if there will be another chaos again to happened.There were nights that we will sleep a few meters away from our home ,were looking some place to hide.Its very tiring ,because we're bringing some of our things like blanket ,bags,and some foods and utensils too.

• Year 2011

I am not expecting another war again with those two groups because it's been a few years that they are silent.But at exactly 1 pm ,while I was resting in my house ,we heard a very loud gun shot from the military camp.My eldest son was just 2 years old and I'm 7 months pregnant with my daughter.I don't know what to know since I don't want to run because of my baby.My father came home and helped me carry my eldest son,and we run towards some place where there's a space to hide,together with our relatives .That time,I experience palpitations because of nervousness and anxiety,and it's hard to breath.But I tried to calmed myself because I know that no one can help me and I need to strong.But the funny thing is that ,my son who is 2 years old,didn't even cry or feel afraid,he even laughed so loud because he thinks it's funny to hide with elder people just like tagu-taguan.We stay few for hours hiding on that place before we get home.Thats was very tiring and there are a lot of mosquitoes in that place but we just ignore it because we know that there's nothing to help us and it should start with ourselves and we should stay strong.

There is always a threat in our place before ,sometimes there are some thief's or they called it bandits who come during the night to get the carabao,horses of some residents,that's why our barangay have instructed the people to guard at night and they make a bell to alarmed the people.

This story happens a few years ago and for now ,there's no any war in my place,but the military camp still existing.

Based on my experienced war doesn't give any good for the people,it will just caused trouble,and destroy the peace and harmony of the people .Some residents have sold their property and transfer to another place to avoid it.

As I have observed war never ends,as long as there is someone who will strongly go against each other .It will also cost a lot of money with their bullets bought by the government,every fire of their gun is money.Another thing is the collateral damage with the firing was done without any compensation.

As of now,I don't want that my kids will grow up like what I have experienced before,full of fear,threat and sleepless during the night.

This war that happens recently was not helping among the people,it will create another trouble in the future.Just like in our place,there are a lot of innocent families that suffer because they lost their husband ,especially those cafgu who died during the war.And the stress that it brings to the residents,in all ages,is so real.Were like an owl in the night,were always watchful,and guarding.It is because we have to protect our lives.

War never ends and it will just keep on repeating without end.I grow up living on a place that has a conflict.While these recent happening in Ukraine is more, than my experience because they used heavy equipment and machines for war.

I feel sad for all the casualties and the affected place ,where the people have lived.I just hope that they will have reconciliation for the sake of the innocent people like the kids,infants.I remember that during the war in 1996 my younger brother was still a baby.My mama was carrying him and were hiding somewhere ,it will cry when he hear the gunfire around.

The tension,the struggle,while the war is ongoing,it never ends.

Let's just hope for the best,of course,that this conflict between countries won't last,and pray for the people in Ukraine and Russia,that they will be safe.

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