How is my birthday?

This is question was about to ask with myself, because yesterday is my birthday, I'm on my 34rth year of existence, I think I was old already, but I still feeling young ehee. My birthday was like a normal day, no cooking and serenading happen, why? It's because I don't have any budget for my birthday, that's the fact.

Yes, I don't want to lend money just to prepare for myself, and I don't want to spend our money which is a budge for the coming days of our food. Though I don't have any cakes or what, but I was grateful to be alive on my birthday. My Lola who passed away last year have the same birth date with me, so we always celebrate together every year, only this year for the first that we don't have her.

Because I don't want to cooked or plan anything on my day, my mother is the one who make an initiative and cooked for me.

She cooked "biko", which is our favorite everytime there is a birthday.

My friend used to sing me a birthday song when I gave her this biko, hehe. She's the only one who serenade me on that day.

I didn't feel bad despite of having no preparations or food on my day, because I'm already used to it, since I was young. I don't want to pretend, but we're really having a financial problem because of the price increase of the gasoline. Our budget is so tight lately, and I choose not to buy anything except with our food in the table three times a day.

What am I thankful for on my 34rth?

I am grateful that my kids are already grown up, my eldest is 12 and my youngest daughter is 9 years old. I have time for myself, and do what I want, I'm living happily with my husband for 12 years of being married. I get married when I was 19, that was too young and a lot of immature decisions and emotions had happened a long time ago, but I can say that I already learned a lot from my experiences. Though I'm not an expert or will I be,but I'm thankful how did life brought me in this particular situation today.

Though love will not keep us alive literally because we cannot eat it 😅, but love tighten and keeps us together as a family. My husband and I are not perfect spouse, we made mistake, misunderstandings but I am thankful that we truly cherished the marriage that we have committed by God's grace.

What was the highlight of my birthday?

Obviously, not the food, anyway, we cooked chicken tinola for dinner. But, the most beautiful moment, is that we prayed together as a family and we thank the Lord in my special day. That was amazing things that I want to cherished. Which I didn't experience before with my parents while growing up.

There's no gift, no treats, but honestly, I'm very glad to be able to reach on my birth date. Lately, I have realized that every little thing that we have is already an enough reason to be thankful.

If you are updated with what had happened to Justin Bieber, his face was half paralyzed, because of the virus that attacks the nerves of his face. That was very unexpected thing that he encounter, but that was too remarkable. He said that "Everything happens for a reason, and it really it is". I can see him still hopeful and want to give time for himself with what had happened to him.

Truly, if we breath, we eat, walk, talk, sing, smell, see, touch,and all the senses., are valid enough to celebrate life.

I can say, that even if I don't have cakes, lechon, spaghetti in my birthday, but I have more than enough. I'm just glad that we can provide our kids foods daily, hug them and be with them,for better or for worst, I am glad to be in my 34rth.

Yes, it's more fun when I can share food and let my neighbors in the house, but I don't see it as enough reasons to say that my birthday was not happy, it's very happy, being alive and kicking, that's a great blessing from the highest above all!

Lastly, thanks to this platform that I still have benefited with my published articles here for over a year now.It's always a great experienced and life changing journey, yes it is. It changed my daily routine, it helps me cultivate my ideas and learnings about writings.

I'm still learning day by day on how to write, through you tube tutorials because I find writing as a of my happiest moment.Where I can be myself, and express myself, without fear, but instead, I feel the freedom because I can let my heart out through my words.

My struggles at the age of 34

Lately, my struggle is about physical, maybe most women do, especially for a full time mom like me, who doesn't have time to pamper myself. But, I won't let myself be defeated on this, instead, I have started my glow up challenge, ehee. I look at my face on the mirror, and shape my eyebrows, and put some lipstick and cream on my face. For me, I should not disregard self care, because it will help me boost my confidence to face the people around me. "Kilay is life ', hihi, that' s why ladies, we are beautiful no mater what they say, words can't bring us down, according to" Christina Aguilera.

Another reason for me, why I don't like to spend money on my birthday, because we're planning to transfer to my husband's company at the end of the month, and we planned to buy new things that we gonna used there. All the things that we have here in our house, will not be brought there. And of course, every prices goes higher from food to other basics, I should be a wise spender.

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I was supposed to write a short story today but I wasn't able to finished it. Thank you everyone, for responding my comments and liking my posts.

That's it for today, as a little update about myself, anyway, thanks everyone for supporting my articles for the past few days, sponsors(thanks for not leaving the box empty).

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