Love & friendship in the same person

I wonder why it is easy for people to let go of such thing. Commitment nowadays are rare yet people are wasting it.

When people fall in love, they will risk everything for someone they fell in love with.

I've met someone I didn't expect to fall in love with. She's one of the most unexpected person that I've loved. I've met her way back when I was still a high school student. She's just a normal girl just like everyone else, nothing special and I didn't even noticed her before. On my 8th grade of high school she and I were in a same class. Then years passed by, I've met her again on my 1st year of college. Both of us were in shocked when we've found out that we were classmates. She and another friend of mine is the only one I know in my first few days of college.

She became my best friend and we've always stick together ever since. She's my rant buddy, partner in crime, and other things that bestfriends do. I've always tell her all of my problems and she's always there to help and comfort me. She's there at my darkest day. She helped me to overcome my depression. We've got each others back ever since.

2nd year of college, me and my friends decided to look up for an apartment or dormitory since we've think that it will be hard for us to take on a trip everytime we goes to school. We were supposedly look for an apartment good for 4 person since we're only four guys that is willing to rent an apartment. Then unexpectedly my girl best friend and her friends decided to come with us. They were the one who decided which apartment we will be renting. We've rent an apartment consisting of two rooms, one as the girls room and another is for us the guys. All of us were so happy back then. We're like a family.

Every week I always head back home by taking a trip with a bus, van or a jeepney. I always took a trip alone, sometimes with the guys. And one day, my girl bestfriend asked me if I'll be heading home and she said she will come with me, since we are heading on the same province. And after that we've always stick together, she joins me along the way to school or while heading to our hometown. She's kind and sweet at the same time. I didn't expect that I will fall for her. After few months that we were together I've started to realized that I'm falling for her so I've tell her how I feel towards her and asked If I could court her. So I did.

Month of october, we were officially boyfriend and girlfriend. We were so happy back then. I've always helped her in housework and on academics. I'm the one who's working with her activities such as electrical plan design and other engineering assignments. She took care of me when I'm sick. Our apartment is far from convenience store since 711 are outside the subdivision. Yet she was able to bought me everything I need. She's super sweet and caring, she took care of me when I can't even move while I'm lying in bed. She's always happy when we were together back then. Our relationship were so perfect and matured. So far as I know that we only had several fights. We rarely fight. We're always in good terms since we really can understand each other.

I've loved her selflessly. I did everything to make her feel loved. I distanced myself to every girl she's jealous of. I've helped her in everything. I am always there for her.

But everything changed after pandemic outbreak occurs. Month of march school classes were suspended. I've missed her so much but I can't even do anything to meet her since our town is on lockdown. Also, I'm broke at that time and I can't even buy anything for her. She started to changed after she met her shs set of friends. She's super happy with them and I understand it. I'm happier knowing that she's happy. She became cold to me after few months after reuniting with her group of friends called amora. She had a girl bestfriend and a boy bestfriend on that set of friends.

She's super close with her boy bestfriend. And I've trusted both of them. Knowing her, she knew her limits since she's super mature. But I didn't expect what happened next. Month of December our relationship are fine. Normal day as girlfriend and boyfriend. I've messaged her that I'll finish my quota on a game called axie infinity. After playing that game and contacted her. She sent me a message that makes me anxious. She said that she will be saying something. Out of the blue, she messaged me that she will be ending our relationship. She's honest since she told me the reason why she wants to end our relationship. She said that she can't take it anymore, she's not happy with me anymore, she likes someone else and admitted that she likes him ever since even though she's my girlfriend. That was her boy bestfriend. So far as I remember she's always with him and her group of friends called amora. She told me that she's happy in his presence. And yeah, I was left behind. I was speechless, I didn't feel anything while reading that message. I know that I didn't do anything wrong. I thought it was a dream but it is indeed a reality. We officially broked up.

Recently I've found a photo of her with a caption "Lucky I'm inloved with my bestfriend". I can tell that she really is happy since she loves going on a trip. That's the thing that I wasn't able to do for her, taking her on a trip since I lacked on money. But yeah I'm really happy knowing she's happy with her life right now.

And some nights I've always thought that I will never be enough to someone. Even If I do my best. Even if I'm faithful. Maybe she wasn't really the one for me. But still, I'm rooting for her success and happiness. I'm happy for her.