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Date: Wednesday, March 30th.

A few days has past since I arrived home from school. All is well for me health wise, and home hasn't been homier. Although I have this compelling desire to get a job somewhere, in order to help keep up with the little I can get at the house. I am still, rather, inconclusive. Jobs are not easy to come by these days - that much is true, but as much as I'd like to get my hands busy with something; the inability to decide what to do is killing me. I mean do I just leave home one day in search of something that I didn't loose? (That doesn't make sense. I know. Because I've been overthinking lately sometimes the thoughts don't just click as I want them to).

Last night, I read from Mr. @Olasquare. His article "You've got to plan", made me think on the possibilities of doing things differently - by that I mean being able to take opportunities as they come and carefully mapping out the things I should do to make me better at what I do. I love writing that much I know. I can definitely improve on my writing skills. But, what about learning something other than writing? Perhaps, doing anything else would eventually be a drag, and at some point I'll get tired of it. But, who am I kidding? I'll remain stuck if I don't make an effort to come out of this sticky mud. There are some people's work here that I admire and look up to. As one of them is mentioned above, I especially, love reading @meitanteikudo- his series late nights, drunken thoughts usually feels like I got a ticket to see a whole new world of free writing euphoria. @Talecharm- I can never go wrong with such inspiring contents, @Kristofferquincywith all of the intriguing top ten contents , @FarmGirl , @MichaelBCH , and some others I can't find the time to mention due to my low battery... If only I could be as resourceful, and inspirational. Smiles!

Meanwhile, I feel like I am doing enough. Regardless, of me being here for over a Month if I am to make an assessment of myself so far I'll say I've been rather POOR. Somedays I'm like "My Article/post would get noticed", other days I worry "I'm not attracting viewers to my articles. I should join a community, instead. Maybe I'll attract readers that way". Well, no. These were the thought process that brought me to the notion of not, simply, doing enough. Maybe I should ask myself the question, "What have I been doing wrongly?". Well, nothing ever comes easy. Who knows, maybe, if I do things differently it still wouldn't work out. Sighs At this point, it feels like all I do is to read and read and read and write and write and hope and hope. Wow, it seems I have begun to nag. That wasn't my intention when I decided to write this. I just wanted to clear things out for myself.

Even now as I write, I am stuck and I can't find the words to continue. It's 9:38 a.m, my head is blank and I'm hungry. Alas! I'm having one of those days where I don't know if I can get far by forcing out something that wouldn't be of any interest to readers, whatsoever. I don't know but, I think I'm a perfectionist. If something is to pique my interest or, let's say I'm to do anything that has to do with writing it has to be with the right words, spellings and all the whatnots. Maybe I should revisit that thought, too, right? Laughs!

Oh well, time to refill my batteries, stop my overthinking and get something to eat. I apologise for boring you with my uninteresting rantings. I really should stick with doing something better, and less boring next time.

Greetings!

A pleasant morning to y'all.

That was one really, really random writing piece from me. From my point of view, I find it very unorthodox. I hope to interest you guys with something from my ongoing series titled, "Love, fantasies and Moonlights".

But, until we read again.

Thank you for sticking with me.

Ja ne (じゃあね)

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