Was I Wearing A Mask? Where Has All My Beauty Gone

Imagine the likeness, today of all days, my friend decided to ruin my morning by giving me some reality checks. Bringing to life something in my subconscious that has not yet come ashore .

So I woke up to this beautiful big eyes starring down my face. Seeing me awake she said, Oga (fun way of saying master) you know you are getting old. I was taken aback. Are you serious? Who asks those kind of questions early in the morning, I mean who does that, lol. I didn't see that coming .

Later as I took my shower, those words echoed back again, "you know you are getting old" . For once I tried to avoid looking at the bathroom mirror. Afraid to see bare face reality. But I did anyway.

Looking deeply into the mirror, I could see it. Tiny fine lines beginning to appear on my face. I tried to smile but the wrinkles appears to increase. I stopped smiling , lol. I don't like what I hate.

Youthfulness gradually fading. For a second I didn't know how to feel. Do I feel heartbroken? Maybe. That once handsome face is not as attractive as it used to be few years ago. But why didn't I notice it all this while? Perhaps I chose not to see it, the lines has always been there.

Oh, It's now beginning to fall in place. All the recent struggles to carry out activities I would normally do in a breeze. Things now matters more to me unlike before. My priorities are changing, they are like opposite of what they use to be. Everything now makes sense to me why it suddenly changed. This guy is getting old!

It is the circle of life. Whether I see it as a good thing or bad thing is immaterial. It is what it is. We live in a youth obsessed age. We all want to remain young forever, at least the ladies, lol, but Life doesn't think so.

Ageing is a natural process that is going to happen to us all....... Halle Berry

Not quite long I travelled to see my mum. As she came towards me to hug me, I looked at her and smiled. I remember the younger version of this strong beautiful woman in front of me as a kid. Looking at how age had made her so frail and dependent breaks me. But I chose to smile.

Its a process, from babies to adulthood back to being babies again. It's a circle. No one escapes it except you are a vampire, lol.

The beauty of it all is how we choose to see this phase of life makes all the difference for us. I have realised it has not really changed my approach, it just made it better. I have more wisdom now. Things that hardly made sense to a younger me seems more meaningful now.

Funny enough I tend to be more happier now and way more tolerant. In a whole lot of ways ageing does not define me. Like they say, we don't stop playing because we grow old, we grow old when we stop playing.

How do you see ageing? Do you embrace it as part of you now? The good thing is, as we come of age we tend to get better and even more beautiful if you ask me. We make less mistake as we are much wiser. It is a beautiful time of our life and we need to embrace it and adjust accordingly.

All pictures taken from unsplash.com from the various artists.