Prison

How long do I wait ?

How long do I wait for a saviour .

I fight with 77 demons daily

How do I escape from the pains,aches, the anger ,the suffocation

I was with friends and family but felt invisible

Missed all the teenage fun , still waiting for a prison breaker.

I speak but I don't hear my voice.

I live but die slowly .

I never knew only me got me .

I lived in a world I imaginarily made dark and it became real !!!!

The world I lived in was a process of my thoughts.

I waited for thousands of years !!! , Thousands of years to find out I was in a prison of myself .

I need to find happiness again .

I need to smell success

As a child growing up all I knew were mistakes

I made sure my life won't have a scratch cause of lessons learned by my elders .

I had to leave by example

In the process not knowing myself

Trap in my mind

Lived in my imagination

Died in my fantasy

Now it's hard to let go , it's hard to see the world differently.

Am my own saviour but am not ready to be a hero yet

Prison isn't were I wish to be ,but the solitude found there is a different explanation .

What's wrong with me? , Has always been my question

Felt I was a mistake right from the start ,felt I wasn't worthy

It won't be long my spirit won't accept the dark my mind is entertaining now.

I need to know what is it to love ,to feel protected , and cared for .

I need to be freed from this prison ( myself)

I have heard of stories of victory from fortune tellers

I have been told miracles

I have seen wonders

But I am the greatest accomplishment I can be for myself

I am my success story

In sad times being alone has never been new

I have always been my cheerleader,my competitor

I cry myself to sleep most times

I give myself hope for a dawn

I am the best me of me

Seeing through the mirror seeing physically I'm free but mentally prisoned

I feel I can make my freedom a reality

I will break the chains up

I will be freed soon

It's time to breath again

It's time to live again

I need to be alive