Knowing Grace Deeper: Adulthood Years

This will be the last article for the getting to know me deeper story. Thanks for being with me.

Adulthood Years

As I have mention in the previous article entitled "Knowing Grace deeper: Teenage Years", I stopped my study about 2 years so I graduated my High School years late before I started College. In my teenage years I have matured earlier and known things. That led me into a dependent and wise lady. As an adult is very challenging but because of what I have experienced I could say the challenges had its purpose and I am grateful.

When I started chosing my University, my dreamed school wasn't the one for me. I already took the entrance exam and passed. Even fitted myself for school uniform but things went out of the plan. The children of the family that I was supposedly working while I study were not agreeing on the idea of their mother which is to support my study as a working student. So, I went home hoping that there will be another opportunity to knock for my Bachelor Degree. I was so eager to finished my study that I took all the scholarship examination to every scholarship that I knew. And I prayed everyday, every night, asking to God that He would give me a chance to go to College and promised to him if He would I will never let him down. Few months later, the result came and I got passed all five scholarship that I applied. I hurriedly find school to enrolled and found one in the Southern part of our province. I got admitted but sad to say I needed to choose only one scholarship as the rules of the University emplied. I picked the one that was closed to my heart and one that could still have the chance to dedicate my thanks giving to God for the answered prayers through serving in the community. It was a blessing to me and to my family. I am more than willing to do my best in my study.

I managed to enrolled myself alone, find a place to stay and went to a tailor to fit my uniform that time. I was so eager and because of that eagerness to pursue my study I don't have to wait someone in order for me to start. I managed everything because of that eagerness. It was a very challenging part of my life because I need to do my best to not fail, including the pressure was the budgeting of the little amount that I had after I payed the tuition fee, the boarding house and gave small amount to mother. Amount of money that time seems so small and money itself disappear in a very short span of time. And I needed to hold it, make sure that it will reached the next release for scholarship allowance. Father gave me budget, as I call it because everything is budgeted and no allowance at all, every week a 500 pesos that would cover my whole expenses -fare, rice, viand, shampoo, soap, and school projects. Sometimes it's just 350 or 400 pesos because father don't have stable job, still I went to school. It's not a hindrance for me. It's a challange that I openly accepted, because I have dreams to achieve. Well, I am proud to say that I graduated college with a Bachelor's degree on Secondary Education, with all those challenges. Not just graduated but also received a medal as Cum laude. Everything was payed off.

After graduating College, the Liscensure Examination was the next challenge. I graduated year 2019 and I took the exam the same year, while having my part-time teaching in order for me to pay my examination, my reviewers' books and review sessions. It was more challenging than finishing my study. I couldn't focus one thing because of multiple jobs to be done as a part-time teacher. Still, I took the exam, and with the grace of God, I passed. Passing the examination wasn't the end of the journey and the assurance of having job. Findjng job is not easy. When my contract as part-time ended in that same year, I needed to find another job. The pressure became so tight and heavy that I needed to left home. My family was expecting me so much, especially father, though he would not directly said it but he always emphasize things indirectly. I couldn't bare it that I went to Cebu to find a job. I promise to him that before the year end I could give him what we need which is a land. Yes, we don't own a land and part of the motivation to finished study is to buy a land for the family. Since we move in here, in father's hometown, we constantly had to move from time to time because the owner of the land said so. That is maybe the reason also that father wanted me to finished my study. I always put in mind that I am their hope, to live a better life. Though they don't asked me to do it but I want to give it to them. I want to pay back the love and the sacrifices they gave to me.

Going back, I didn't fulfill the promise that I had because of the pandemic. I lost my job, and I needed to go home. Right now I trying my luck in applying for a teaching job in Deped. The current journey is a bumpy one and a roller coaster at the same time. Where in I don't know what lies a head of me. I currently enrolled myself in a TESDA course and having tuitorial sessions as a side line. In that way I could buy my basic needs and will no longer ask to my parents. I am an adult now. I had to fulfill my needs though my parents would give me if I will ask but I am an adult now. A fully grown up adult who need to support herself and her family.

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