09/10/21 1:00 P.M, Friday

The above mentioned date and time was the exact moment wherein my baby brother took his last breath. I will no longer tell you the reason why because it would take an hour to explain it. Just to give you a hint he died due to leukemia.

A Mourning Sunday to each and everyone, I'm sorry for not being active for these past three days. As you can see from the title itself you'll already know whats the reason behind my inactivity.

To be honest I'm so down right now, my heart kept on weeping like it slowly tearing me apart, and the endurable pain gradually loses my interest to do anything. I hope you understand that I can't write this article properly and nicely, if you notice some errors just ignore it for a moment, however I just want to dump all the agony and sorrow that I've felt for what happened.

(I can't post a pic of him right now because it will only make me cry harder, hope you'll understand.)

In this afternoon, I just want to write a letter for my little besty who became my stress-reliever and playmate, HOOO! I can do this, I am literally crying right now.

Dear Little Bro,

Niknik? How was your stay in heaven? Did Jesus held and hug you when you arrive there? Can you please tell Him about me, our siblings, mama and dada too? You know what, Ate misses you so bad, your cuddles and sweet voice when you call me "Ate", your soft ears which I always pinch whenever I caught you being naughty, your cute and adorable face while saying "Ate, please buy me dashmik (Dutchmill)", you are my cutest defender, when kuya Bry and Ate Lyn teases me and you used to beat them with your tiny stick and last but not the least you are my personal nurse, whenever I am sick you never leave by my side, and ask me all the time if I'm Okay because you badly want me to get better as soon as possible so that we could play together.

You'll gonna miss your birthday this coming october honey, and you we're too excited back then because you wanted to have an Iron Man themed birthday Party and you know what I was about to buy you an Iron Man costume but unfortunately you left early as we've expected. Baby, you broke my heart 💔, but Ate was still so proud of you because you are as strong as Iron Man, you fought a great battle, you still wear your usual smile even though your hurting inside. I still remember your promise to us that when you grow up you want to be a policeman because you are a die hard fan of CARDO DALISAY and you want to have a wife as beautiful as ALYANA, I find it cute and amusing little bro haha but I guess that dream will never come true.

Thank you baby, we are beyond blessed to have you as our baby brother, you are a heaven sent indeed. Our forever Angel, you can rest now, and your desire to see Jesus face to face will finally come true. Ate will no longer your playmate and Jesus will play that part on my behalf, fly high my beloved brother, I'll promise that Ate will take care of mama and dada. Even if you're already gone you will always be in our heart and mind. We will try our very best to be happy for your sake because we are sure that Jesus will take good care of you. I love you so much❤️

Yours Truly,

Ate your forever Besty

Losing someone you dearly love is the worst and painful moment of all time. Me and my family didn't expect this to happen because my baby brother was still young and he didn't even reach the half of human's life cycle and I guess there is a deep reason why God took him to us as early as possible. Please pray for our family that God may give us comfort, strength and joy to move forward despite of our lost.

Thanks for reading that would be all.

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