Just remember 5 years ago...
Just remember that 5 years ago, you dreamed about where are you now…
These past few weeks, it’s been so tough for me and the rest of all the teachers due to tons of paper works that keep coming back and forth. Plus the activities, seminars, meetings, and webinars that keep rushing every week and add the personal agendas and tasks that I need to finish every day.
So these past few days I feel so stressed and exhausted about everything, and there comes a time that I lost interest in everything that I do. I feel demotivated that I cannot even think to rest and sleep just to cope with the things that I need to finish and submit on time.
So my days are filled with rants after rants, complaints after complaints and so being productive in a day is very difficult for me. Breakdowns after breakdowns and the worst are that I’m thinking about giving up.
Then one night, as I’m crying in silence, and a glimpse, I saw my graduation picture with my parents…
And then God talks to me in silence and makes me realize that…
5 years ago, I dreamed of where I am now.
A look back at the time I saw myself when I’m still studying. I remember all the sleepless nights, sweats, and silent cries that I gave just to graduate and get the diploma that my parents want.
As I look back, I remember my parent’s struggles and sacrifices just to sustain and surpass my needs in studying. I remember all the hard works that they offered just to give me everything that I need in my studies.
As I look back, I remember the days when I cried hard to God just to pass all my exams from LET until I entered as a public school teacher.
And now, it’s my 4th year teaching in a public school, it’s not easy to get in here, reminiscing all the things that I need to comply with just to reach the points to be qualified is not that easy.
So I, therefore, realize those 5 years ago, that I dreamed about this. Sometimes it’s not the work/job that is the problem, it’s me, myself. Instead of finding solutions and finding ways to make my work and tasks to be done, I find myself ranting and complaining before everything. Instead of managing my time to begin and finish everything, I choose to cry and overthink so hard how to finish everything in easy ways.
So after I cried so hard, I reflect on myself what I need to do and what I should not do to finish my tasks on time. I need to be disciplined enough to manage all my time in doing everything. I need also to be consistent in doing what I need to do and reach my goals.
Final Thought:
So for everyone who is also struggling with this kind of situation, cheer up, we got this so far just to give up easily. Whenever we feel demotivated, let’s just remember the years that we are dreaming about what we have and where we are now. Remember all the reasons why you push yourself to get in here. Remind yourself that everything will pass, and all these challenges can be our room for improvement and success.
We got through everything 5 years ago, so let’s do it for the next more 5 years!
How about you? What are your dreams 5 years ago?
Thanks for this article, made me think about the years that I also thought of having my own work and here it is now. There are really times that we complain because of the many tasks, but I realize that we can only appreciate the work when we start it positively by saying to ourselves that we can do it, instead of always complaining of those tasks.