What could this life offer me in the grave? I don't know if there is any at all. I was considering that what will happen to me if I decide to take my stand? What if I choose to stand and live my life without having to believe in God?
If it is possible that I could stand on my own without being good or bad, I will do that if I could but there is always a riot within me any time that I do bad. Moreover, my life becomes filled with joy each time that I do good. I couldn't do that, it is very clear to me as I couldn't mix joy with riot.
As it appears to me, it is either I choose to do the right or the wrong. I considered doing both good and the bad and maintaining a balance between the two. "So, because you are lukewarm and neither cold nor hot, I will spew you out of My mouth!" - Revelation 3:16
To me, it will be a sacrilege if I should depart from the will of God. Will I be credited for travelling halfway and departing from the way of righteousness? Can I be ever rewarded for the good things I have done in the past? Maybe I will be able to witness the fact that says "Behold, God is mighty and despises not any: He is mighty in strength and wisdom"-Job 36 verse 5
Even though he despises no one, does that means that even those who do not walk with Him and those who hated Him shall benefit from His blessing?
Does that mean that if I choose to rebel against God, and start by challenging the decent saints who believed in God solely? If I wage war against the loved ones who dwell in His Holy place?
Those that worship in His tabernacle in all the days of their lives. This is going to be a terrible thing to do. It will bring suffering and His wrath will justify me as wicked. " He preserves not the lives of the wicked;"- Job 36:6
I strive each day to do what is right, why is everything not so easy. Why is it not that I can get anything that I want without praying at all? Can't I command the wind to stop at my own will?
I thought of an alternative way of running away from the Living God and the only option that I found was serving satan. The obsession of the devil is to steal, kill, and destroy. If I choose, not to kill, I hope that only this could fulfil all the sacrifices that I need to make.
Even that seems so impossible to me, why won't I kill, what if someone cheated me and caused me a lot of pain in my heart. What if I could not hold it within myself. What if someone takes the one that I love. Well, I can abide by that. If I do not rear anger in my heart.
There is no reason why I will not steal if I lack, I could easily get the national glossary for myself and become wealthy, but what if I was tortured beyond the threshold, above the measure of what I could endure. This is actually of no gain to me at all. That is why I will not try it, it is of no gain for me
The only two things that He requested from me is to love Him, To confess him as my saviour. To love my neighbour as me. He promised me more than I could ever ask for in my life. God has given it all and the only condition attached to controlling time and season just like Moses!
Give me Your love that oh Lord! That I may love you more than anything else and also love my neighbour as myself. Amen!
It was a revelation and also like inspiration, but whichever it looks like to you. It's a great conviction and thank you for reading!
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The third won't be necessary anymore. Let me use the opportunity to conclude briefly, If we could just walk according to the love of God and do His will, obey all the commandments that was listedd in the book of Exodus chapter 20, Everything will work well on our side again. Thank you for reading, don't forget to check out my sponsors. They are a way better and recommended
If you journey halfway, there won't be any trophy. Finishing is crucial