When is he going to answer?

The pangs will be over soon was what she always say to herself. She hope that her long time prayers will come to pass. The breakthrough they needed in her family, she hope her brothers would someday break the news to her that life is finally better for them. There was no where in the world she actually belonged. Things were quite tough at the moment. All she prayed for was a breakthrough.

When is he going to answer her prayers was what she always ask herself ? When is life going to be worth living for her? When is she going to be happy about her existence on earth? Does God still answers prayers? Does miracles still happen? People keep testifying everyday. Why is God answering theirs and not hers? She felt lonely. She immediately concluded that there was a generational curse on the family. She didn’t want to be insignificant, so she started investing into her future at a little age, knowing fully well that the growth can be organic but ensuring there is a progress is very important. As the last child of her family, it felt like everybody was depending on her. There was a day her Mom called her not to forget the promise she made to her to take her out of poverty, she could barely remember when she made that promise to her. Her brothers would sometimes ask for tip, something she’s meant to be asking for, she’s never happy about the situation.

On this hot afternoon, she was reflecting with sadness on the unhappiness of her family. Her eldest sister just badged a degree at 34 years, after given birth to four kids, with no marriage. She’s depending on her husband for feeding and sometimes call on her father for some little money to survive on. She didn’t want to be like her. Her second older sister who had just married is waiting for the fruit of the womb, and she’s not happy In the marriage but scared to leave. Her first older brother, a dark and handsome man who is every girl’s crush is a school teacher with a Bsc in computer science. His salary isn’t even enough for him to spend. While her second older brother who is the genius in the family is working in an awesome private school with low paycheck and also doing his postgraduate education at the moment with no financial help from the family. She doesn’t want to be like any of them. She wants to be happy doing what she’s passionate about. But then life is hard, everything seem so tough. The country is hard too.

She’s scared because she doesn’t know what await her in the future, she’s scared because even her father doesn’t have financial rest at 68. It felt like things were going to continue that way but, she’s just staying optimistic. She remembered every cross-over nights that hold on 31st of December every year, when the cleric will tell you to tell God what you want for the following year, and she will talk to God with a sincere heart, with tears dropping down her cheeks, believing that will make the prayers get to God on time. She remembered how devoted she was, and how her Mom spent most of her time in church working for God, but there’s still no breakthrough. Her brothers are still the same way they were. She is currently disorganized. It’s a sacrifice sha. I’m sure she will look back with some smiles later.

Whatever you are going through, I want you to know it’s a stage. The pangs will be over soon. It happens, we all just need to stay optimistic. The breakthrough you’re praying for, guard it with faith. Know within you it can take time, years before those prayers manifest, but God never forsake his people. The time you waited will be worth it. Trust me, there will be days you don’t feel like yourself, days you question your existence on earth, days you just want to overdo, days you want to do that thing you said you were never going to do. It’s okay to express your anger, but do not go astray. Days you think God wasn’t there, he was, and he will always be there. Those prayers will manifest. It is worth the time. Hold on to yourself, don’t give up, be optimistic.