In a child's perspective

"Tita, why are you sad?"

I startle when I hear my niece speak. I thought she was still asleep.

"No darling, I am not sad. Go back to your sleep. "

I pretentiously smiled at her and even show my teeth.

"Liar! Didn't you tell me that lying is bad? I saw you're frowning a while ago"

She rolled her eyes on me. Wait! What!?

"Hey, little girl! Did you just rolled your eyes on me?"

"Hihi. I'm sorry tita. I just want to know why you are sad"

I looked at her innocent face and smiled.

"Okay. What do you love the most doing?"

She hold her chin and looked at the ceiling while her brows meet. It took her several seconds before she answered.

"I love to sing and dance"

"Really? Don't you get tired singing and dancing?"

"I do get tired."

"Then why do you still do it anyways? Why don't you just stop?"

"It makes me happy. As well as you, mama, papa , uncle and auntie. Also, just because it's tiring, doesn't mean I should stop it. Didn't you tell me before that if I get tired in doing the things I love, I'll just rest but never stop?"

"Hmmm. Then what if it doesn't make us happy anymore?"

"I'll still do it. As long as I am happy. I'm not doing those things just for you guys. I sing and dance because that is how I feel good and be myself."

I was left astounded with her words. I felt ashamed of myself. I was the one telling her those things, but I am struggling to apply it in myself. Indeed, it is so easy to give advice and we don't walk our talk.

As an adult, we really love making simple things complicated. Choosing hard solution when there is more easy way to do it.

I was glad to have that conversation with my niece, for I was able to formulate an article about the things she made me realized that adults do, that makes our life hard.

Pretentions

Adults are so good in pretending. Day by day, we are wearing different types of mask to cover up what we really feel inside. To hide the brokenness behind those happy faces.

People prentend with different purpose.

Some would pretend brave in order to avoid being called coward.

Some would pretend in order to gain advantages.

Some would pretend like thet were the victim even if they're not, just for the sake of getting emphaty.

And most of time, we pretend to be happy, because we are so tired in explaining ourselves to other people and they still don't understand.

Our world is full of pretentions that sometimes, we forgot to distinguish what's real from fake.

If we would only knew and realized that it is okay not to be okay and showing our real self is not weakness. Maybe, our lives will be so much better.

People pleaser

The reason why I was frowning when my niece caught me, was because I am having a hard time choosing what kind of topic should I published today.

Ideas where just in every corner of my mind. But the only problem is, I am worried that the readers might not appreciate it. Because of too much worrying, I forgot that the reason why I am writing in the first place, is because I wanted to express what is in my heart.

Many times in our life that we choose to please other people than follow what we really want. We let the other people's opinion dictates what we should do.

We are so busy living for the other people and often forget to live our life the way we want it to be.

If we would have view life the way the children sees it. I'm sure, happiness will never leave our side.

Giving up the things we love just because we are tired

Have you been broken?

Can you still remember what was the last word your ex lover tells you when she/he was about to put an end to your relationship?

Mostly, the reason behind every couple's break up is being tired.

And that goes the same with the things we love doing.

Personally, there were so many times in my life in which when everything seems to be so tiring, I would prefer just to give it up. No matter how I badly love doing it.

I let this so called tiredness cover my passion.

Being tired is normal. We are human. We have limitations. We are not always motivated. But it is not a valid reason for us to give up the things or people we love.

God created the world, as well as all the living things in just 6 days and then rest in the 7th day. If the infinite God took a rest, so we can.

Giving up is not always the solution. Don't be so harsh with yourself. Sometimes, rest is all what we need to keep going.

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If only I could just turn back time and just stay as a kid forever. If only I could stop myself from growing up. If only...

Those where my what if's in life. I haven't realized the fact that I don't really need to be back with a child's physical attributes to escape responsibilities and reality. All I need is to awaken the child in me that have been asleep for almost 9 years. If only we would choose to view the world just like how a child sees it. Then maybe, maybe we will have the kind of world we all desire.

Remember, we are all a kid inside.

Thanks for reading.

P.S

Images above are mine. They are my niece and nephew.