I'm Not Sweet or more like It's hard to be a Sweet Person
This is really not about my sugar lever or what - hahaha. No, no don't even think that. What I mean to "I'm Lack of Sugar in my Body" is I have no sweetness, even a bit in my body. I just can't be sweet and I find it too girly if I will do that. I mean don't get me wrong okay, I am a girl in every holes in my body. It's just that acting too girly is really not my forte. And aside from that is I am too shy to even act that way. I feel like the little masculinity in my body will feel embarrass if I do that hahaha - do you know what I mean? Lol.
I bet no right? Coz even I can't fathom myself - charrre lol. Fathom my ass tss. Anyways, there are times in my life that I become a sweet woman naman. Or more like a sweet girlfriend. I am sweet as that but never to the family. I am in my teens that time. Lucky those ex's that I loved (not sure though) before because I never had a hard time becoming sweet on them. But everything change now that my pride just can't show some sweetness because it's arghhh - it's too ewwww. Ahahahah - Oh God! A memory of before just form an image in my head.
Those time where I am like shit candy that will act sweetly on chat or a text and may kasama pang pag pout even though no one is looking. Now that I think about it, it's not a good sight to remember eck. Eww eww ewww ewwww!! "Kumain kana baby loves?" "Kain kana! Kapag di ka kumain iiyak ako!! Babyyyyy!" 😨🤢🤮. Oh fvck!! What the! I can't even imagine myself now doing that! Fvck that sheet almirol!?? Like seriously ewww!! Haha but I did it. I am not proud of it hahahah. It's my memory with them but I find it an overreacting memory, lol.
Now that I'm getting old acting sweetly toward someone needs a lot of effort to me now. I just remember, my Mommy D and Mommy F is trying to be sweet to me and all but I am too shy to show it to them that I will just snap at them and they are like "You don't really have sweetness in your body." They are like that while I am feeling cringe inside me hahaha. I mean come on even if I want to I feel like it is not right. I feel like it is a big sins. I am not sweet! I can't and I don't. If you want sweetness from me all I can give to you is shogar and tsokoyeyt.
Hahahaha - being sweet is a good traits din no for a woman. But to some it is annoying too, lol. For me I find it just a way for conveying your love to someone. Imagine you partner is having a hard time in life and then you came with your overflowing love. And then you will shower it to them by showering them with your sweet words and how much you love them - isn't it sweet. How about you guysuuu? Did you find it sweet to the point that it will lift even a small weigh of what you are carrying right now? Is it enough to make you smile and forget your problems for a little while?
How to be sweet anyways. Everyone here knows that I am not sweet, lol. Tell me you miss me as a friend and I will answer it with "I didn't miss you. Hahaha I can't remember now how to be sweet ಥ‿ಥ.
August 25, 2022
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Kakatawa naman Yung pagdika kumain iiyak ako wahahhahahahhahahahha
Sweet ka naman kaya lang you're shy...