Being under the ground, at times when darkness fill you up... it is natural to feel anxious. Sometimes we feel like we just don't belong, like what if we can't make it? What if we don't deserve this? It's too hard and complicated.
One thing about what our brain can do is to focus on what we set to believe. If you'll keep on focusing about the negative things then you'll never have the full confidence to be competent and bring out your potential. Think about it, do you want to remain the same as you are now? If not now then when? Is it okay to give this up and let it go? Will you not regret?
If you focus on that goal you want to achieve, your brain will see a clearer path. Your desire will fuel your passion and persistence to reach your goal. It's like marathon, when you keep focusing on your path and the finish line rather than your competitors, you'll be less distracted, less anxious, bolder, competent and in any way you'll lose, you'll have no regret because you felt how much focused and hard worked you poured. Being proud does not always accompanied by victory, you can lose and still be proud.
Don't keep running away from the darkness trying to find a light. Be the light. You can rest but don't run away, specially when it'll just keep you in that draining cycle of your life.
Focus on yourself. See those people you feel that will be good for your growth. Set the dream you believe. Don't stop until you feel proud. Appreciate the difficult times, it just means it'll be more worth it.
Focusing, putting hard-work, being patient...all of these are not easy. Break the cycle. Stop imprisoning yourself, sometimes it's not about being ready but making yourself capable for the unexpected. You don't wait to be ready, you make yourself ready.
You want to be better? Don't stop. Don't just sit and daydream how good your life will be. A dream without action will remain just a dream. Be realistic, life is hard, we are all fragile. Let your will overpower your fears. Fly and be yourself that you'll be proud of.
Big dream or small dream. Right choices or wrong choice. If it makes you closer to the you that you wanted then do it. Don't be too hard for yourself but don't be so easy too. Don't be afraid to the consequences, facing those will make you grow. It's sad but we really have to suffer. Our path isn't made of red carpet and flower trails.
Feel like everything...every you is just never enough? Are you really never enough? Answer this question as how you see yourself, not how your family, friends or everyone see you. Are you doing something even a little to move forward and grow? If yes then it's not right to see yourself being not enough. You are just not yet satisfied to yourself but you are enough and you deserved to be appreciated.
We can't always handle the situations. We can't change everything but we can change our attitude. If you'll have better attitude then you'll be able to see everything in a different way. A clearer way. Take every lesson you learned. A change on one's mindset and attitude is a better change in his/her life.
Author's note: Hi. Are you okay? Do you feel drained? It's alright to be weak for a while. It's necessary. Weakness did not exist without a purpose. It's alright to be afraid for the mean time, it's alright to think about yourself first. Rest well.
Such an inspiring post, this is amazing.. focus is so important. Thanks for the uplifting post, nice meeting you :)