Randommmm

How y'all my dearest lovelies? I hope you are okay! More days to go, it's gonna be Christmas. Gezzzzz I'm so excited like a child. Who wouldn't?

Today, I'm not actually in the mood to write an article. I'm di-motivated, uninspired to write one but since I don't want to miss any chances I think this gonna be a random thoughts:

I'm out of my mind

Why? because I was crying all night for no reason or actually there is. My mind is full of what if's, the pain that I've been into, my suffering in silence, trying to pull myself out from my own misery, irrational thought and a lot more that makes my head hurt until I fall down in deep sleep. What's worse is waking up with the same agony.

DITO Telecommunication annoyed me

This topic says it all, who wouldn't feel irritated when their signal is way too weak. The past few days I was trying to open my read.cash account since I'm urged to be active every single day. But DITO doesn't cooperate me, I tried to make myself calm as I don't want to have a flying phone hehehe ayokong lumipad yung cellphone ko sa inis. I don't want to change my sim either knowing that DITO is way cheaper as it gives you 25 gb + 2 gb for only $4 compared to other networks.

House to house debt collector

My boyfriend's mother asked me to accompany her in having a house to house, collecting the debt they had. It's been a long time since the debtor pays its debt, they keep on promising to pay that week but until the month end, they don't show up. "Promises are really meant to be broken".

Answering Module

My boyfriend's brother is in Grade 9 if I'm not mistaken, since face to face is prohibited so they have a modular learning. Every week they get the modules and submit them on Thursday the other week. But what makes me feel bad is that he keeps on asking me to answer his module, his mom to be specific. I know helping others is a great attitude, it's just that I'm almost the one who answered his modules in a week. It's like they're depending on me to be the one who answers, including the exam wherein he can find it in the modules, answers are given already as long as he will read it all. I already told him about that but he's still waiting for me to do it for him. While I'm busy doing his module. his brother is doing nothing or just playing with his cellphone. I can't even tell them my feelings because I don't want them to feel bad for me, however, I think they already abused me (I hope I'm wrong). That's not my module after all and I still have a lot of things to do. His brother sometimes jokingly asked me why I did not do that, answer that or what. It makes me feel irritated and I don't like it. Even when I still have a class and assignments that need to be submitted I first do his module so he won't bother me, asking what's the meaning of that, how to make that one that causes why I lose my focus in doing my activities. Don't get me wrong, I just feel that way. I already helped him, why is it not enough? I already did it, not just once, twice, thrice and so on. I'm tired of doing the things that are not mine and his brother is not helping me with his own module.

Sorry for my article today, I know this is way too nonsense. I'm not ranting here okay? I just need to express my feelings to feel relieved. Thank you for reading my article, I really appreciate it.

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