I Dreamed Of My Grandma Again During My Birthday

I still remember, when my grandmother was still alive. I used to love my grandmother very much, when she was with me I was often filled with love.

The sweetness of her love is unceasing, she often preaches to everyone, and she puts me aside when she sleeps and she often teaches me things.

She used to say that she didn't want to see me in this thing or in such a situation.

She always told me that she wanted to see me in this kind of thing and situation that was so good. She said she wanted me to see in a place where I could live well without being trampled on or anything harmful.

My grandmother was so careful with me that she hardly scolded and beat me, that she almost spoiled me in everything, especially the ones I wanted.

I still remember, she always said, "When you grow up, don't cultivate anger and don't be jealous hah.", she always reminded me that no matter what happens, I always choose to forgive.

At first, it was a bit confusing to me, which I didn’t understand what she meant. her sermons were vague in my mind but deep in my heart.

I stayed with my grandmother for a long time, until they had to pick me up because I was close to grade 1, since then we have rarely visited my grandmother.

Until she returned to Iloilo because it was necessary since then I haven't seen my grandmother. My sadness is that I didn't say goodbye to lola, that I didn't hear her voice before she left.

I was angry at that time because they didn't say that grandma was going back to her place, I only found out when I asked why we weren't visiting them anymore. Just a month before we left my grandmother died, I was crying and I didn't know how to calm down. I can't sleep, I want to see grandma during those hours.

It's so hard to feel, so hard to face the thing that they didn't let me see grandma first and say goodbye.

When we got home to Iloilo, I remembered I was looking for my grandmother. I asked them where they were, and they took me to the cemetery. I didn't want to go home then because I wanted to be with him for a long time, but they scolded me because it was getting dark.

That night I had a dream about grandma, we were walking. And then she said, "Don't forget my sermon to you, I love you so much". Then I suddenly woke up.

yesterday, July 04, 2021, was my birthday. I dreamed of grandma again before I woke up. In my dream we were in Laguna, she was sitting at the head of the bed and I was at her feet. We laughed, and then she teased me.

I was just laughing in my dream, she was happy to feel but at the same time, I felt heavy.

After a while, we both fell silent, but she just smiled. Grandma's face was so happy in my dream, I could see the excitement in her eyes as I stared. But as I looked into her eyes I felt some emotion, as if I suddenly wanted to cry and give her a hug.

I just stared at my grandmother, until she arranged her seat and talked to me. "Honey, it's your birthday. I know everything you've been through hasn't been easy for you. I know behind your fights you're getting very weak, but you know I'm very impressed with you."

After she said that she hugged me, I felt that. I felt the warmth of her hug, I felt my grandmother's hug with me that I really wanted to feel again years ago.

as she hugged me I hugged her back, then she said, "You already know him right? You already know."

I still don't know who grandma is referring to, I still don't know who she is referring to in what she said. I just said, "Grandma, don't."

Then she kissed me on the forehead, grandma said "Honey, I'm leaving. I'm so happy to see so many people taking care of you even when I'm gone." After she said that, all of a sudden my surroundings lit up, and I woke up.

When I woke up, my tears suddenly flowed. It was only then that I felt that I was so happy when my grandmother was still alive, I was so happy when she saw me,

Lola, di ko alam kung panaginip ba talaga yun o nagparamdam ka, pero isa ang gusto kong malaman mo. Lola, sobrang miss na kita.

Date Publish: 070521