Standing On Our Decision and Redefining Friendship

August 3, 2022

I don't have much to share these days except for the random rants I need to let out as I have experienced a lot of mischief these days. We don't only get to thank God for the blessings and the good things that He gave us. We also have to be thankful for the challenges and the difficult people we have to deal with every day of our lives as they are instrumental in our growth.

First at the boarding house.

Our landlady had already announced that she will be raising our rent. Our room which housed the four of us would cost us 1000 pesos or 20 USD. To add salt to the wound, she wants us to transfer to a much bigger room which cost 1100 pesos or 22USD. The former occupants of the room vacated the place in search of a bigger place. The more expensive room has its CR and is undeniably comfy as the place is bigger than the one we are occupying. But the catch is, that you can always smell the waste of cats. That's the reason why the former occupants vacated the place.

What irks me is that she seemed to be forcing us to move to the other room to make way for the new occupants that will be housed in our present room. Our landlady is always like this. She would always favour the new ones even if it would mean sacrificing the convenience of her old occupants. I also don't like that she wins over us. She seems to be comfortable that we would always obey her and that she can decide for us.

I know it has been a long time since I'm listing my frustration with her, about my boarding house and my roommates. People have advised me to move out and leave in peace. But for some reason, I seem to never run out of reasons to stay. Before I don't want to leave because of sentimental values. But now, I can't leave because I don't have a place to stay. I don't have a fallback.

Speaking of fallback, I have been in search of an apartment, a room or a boarding house that's closer to the university but to no avail. It's always full, it's always every room is reserved, and it's always fully occupied. So I have no choice but to stay.

This leads me to another issue of concern with me. I don't know but old acquaintances bother me. I used to consider her friends since we shared time in the workplace and even in a boarding house. She's important to me but sad to say, she doesn't have the same feelings for me.

A turning point came to me yesterday when I inquired her about the boarding house where she reserved a room, her officemate told me. So, I hastily inquired her but but but, she lied and told me she hasn't found one yet.

I understand though. Maybe she just doesn't want me to be in the same apartment as hers. I didn't react and I didn't inquire further. I was just disappointed that she would only come to me when she needs something but when it was my turn, I would just end up having a bad mood. Lol

I feel rejected, left, and ignored. After all the things I have done for her. The favours, the advice. I'm not counting them but I just can't believe how she doesn't value our friendship.

Well, shame on me for holding onto memories. Shame on me for giving too much sentimental value. I have now concluded that not all the people you have been with can be considered your friends. It's time to label and it's time to make limitations. There are colleagues, former classmates, former workmates, and acquaintances. I have a lot of them but only a few friends.

*The images used are from Unsplash.com

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