The previous month was so challenging and Hurtful. Full of heartache, that is why I've experienced my anxiety ever.

I am so happy to celebrate my birthday last September 3. It's my 30th birthday and my husband surprised me. I am expecting that I will just prepare I chicken for the big day. And a simple pancit.

This is the food surprise by my husband. The cake and the Pizza😋

We are so happy with my birthday just the 3 of us because it was just MECQ in our place.

The next day, my husband has a delivery. And in the afternoon he invited his one friend to drink with and after that, my husband got high blood. I am so nervous at that time. I am so panic, so need to drink something or anything just to treat my nervousness, stress and anxiety. I have anxiety because I am so afraid when my husband got sick. When he got high blood.

And after a week my brother in law died as a suspected covid but we are so stressed in the morning before he died. Because we need to an oxygen tank before we enter to the hospital. We are so stressed because we can't find an oxygen tank, we can find but there is no oxygen inside. The refill will be the next day but we need the oxygen as soon as possible.

I can't continue the busy days at 5 pm I am asking my husband to send me home because I can't understand d what is my feelings. I am sick, I have a cough and cold slight fever, hyperacidity and nervousness. I think I have anxiety of that time at the first time because when I am thinking that I think I am with a covid too I feel nervous, hard to breathe and got a fever.

My September was so sad. Because from September 5 up to now I still need to treat myself for what I have to feel. When my cough and cold are gone, I need to treat my hyperacidity. After I treat my hyperactivity my fever is still coming back every morning or at night. I feel it's not normal because sometimes I feel a shortness of breath and the right side of my stomach is have pain.

I am struggling with that feeling for almost 2 weeks not including the first week that I have a cough and cold. I am waiting for my last salary in my former job, but it doesn't arrive. So when the copra is ready to sell the profit of it we use it for our diagnostic.

We went to the diagnostic centre last September 28 we got the result for blood chemistry, sugar and urinalysis. My blood Chemistry, Sugar was Normal but in my Urinalysis, there is something wrong. My PUS Cells was so high it was 15-20 but the normal was 0-5 that's.why my fever was never lost it always coming back. So the doctor gave an antibiotic good for 7 days. But before that, she asks if I am pregnant ang I told her that I don't know. And she said I will give you this antibiotic because it is okay to drink this even if you are pregnant.

While the result of the blood chemistry of my husband is there is something wrong also. He was high blood. So the doctor gave him medicine for 1 month and follow up blood chem after taking that medicine for 1 month. Our September was full of stress and thanks to God we Survive.

My husband got work from toktok and I was hired again in the LGU (Local Government Unit) but I was assigned to the vice mayors office. And Start on October 1. Despite all the challenges and problems that came from being jobless for almost 1 month and having a lot of problems for September.

Hoping this Month has a beautiful welcome to us. I have a job and as well as my husband.

Note to Self:

Keep on fighting, everything was just a blessing in disguise.