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Hilak gamay, Padayon dako.
**I don't know. I can't understand. I'm confused. I'm tired.** Have you tried feeling that you are okay but you are not? Have you tried locking yourself out in a dark room because you do not want to see anything, as the moment a light passes through your eyes you will see a lot of things that you can't even understand. Have you felt the feeling that you are laughing but you are not happy. The feeling that you thought you are complete but you're not. Emptiness. That is what I am feeling. The feeling that you are alive, but not actually living. This past few days, I may seem fine in social media. I may be laughing out loud talking with friends. I may be enjoying little chit chats on messenger. But it doesn't mean, I am totally fine. Because to be honest, I am not. I have been exhausted, both my mind and body. I have a lot of thoughts running in my mind. I have a lot of questions me myself failed to answer. I have a lot of things I wanted to do that I do not know how to start. They're confusing, that all I can do is cry. I just wanted to always wear my earphones and get swayed with the loud music. Hear nothing. Just the rhythm and the beat of what I am listening. Alone. Everyday, I feel that I am just a robot programmed completely with what I need to do for a day. The same routine, repeatedly. Sleep, eat work. Sleep, eat, work. Sleep, eat, work. And it's stressing me out. I even lost my appetite. I do not know why. I do not know what I am really feeling. I can't understand. I am trying to be productive but I always end up getting annoyed. I wanted to rest. The rest that I can really feel I am resting. A day that I do not need to force myself to work. A day that I can say I am happy. A day that I can relax my body and mind. I want to unwind. But how can I? I am stuck in the four corners of my room. Doing nothing. Unproductive. It seems that I am just doing things, because it is what needs to be done. Just a compliance. I feel like I torn between what I like to do and just not do it. I do not understand. I do not understand that I end up hurting myself. Pulling my hair down and bump my head to the wall. For the first time, I thought of getting myself out of the picture. And while thinking of that, it burst me out to tears. How? How can I even do that? Is getting out of the picture will wipe all the emptiness I have? Is getting out of the picture will make me happy? Is getting out of the picture will help me? Thank God! I got to think of these questions, that I stopped myself from doing it. I almost give up. I almost stop. I am being selfish, that all I think is my own will. Unreasonable will. What about the people around me? What about my family who is depending on me? What about my future self that is waiting for me? I need to think about them. I need to think of myself. I need to think of what I have started. I need to fight the feeling that's consuming me to do the unreasonable things. ***It is okay not to be okay.*** *The emptiness, the sadness, the pain that we are feeling just means that we are living. This is life. A not so perfect life. But embracing those negativities, and turning them to positive is what makes life perfect. It's okay to cry. Burst out in tears. It's okay to fall. But what's not okay, is not bouncing back. Dry your tears out. Move forward. Life is precious enough to just get wasted.* **Cry a little, continue bigtime. (Hilak gamay, padayon dako.)** ***That's all for today beautiful people. I hope you learned and get something good about my article for today. If you have any thoughts and take away about this piece, feel free to leave it in the comment section below. Let's interact. Stay safe always! Xoxo ✨☺️*** ***- MissJo 💜*** Lead Image Source https://encrypted-tbn0.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcTElUDgOy6ThX9ytRwes_5lQQW0GGbe0Cljfg&usqp=CAU
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I feel you miss Jo.. Ganyan dn ako minsan. But no choice but to let go of that feeling.. Or else.. It might eat us up.
Hi Ate Jane. Oo din e. Minsan gusto ko nadin magpalamon nalang talaga kasi kapagod na, but ended up not doing it. Sa takot ko lang din. Kaya kinakaya nalang talaga.
>Hilak gamay, padayon dako I do feel the same as honestly, started on the first day of the month so I know the feeling, I felt unmotivated this month this is the conversation we had with @Mommykim haha let's blame the dramatic August charrr.. P.s. I dont cry LOL
Siguro no may mga times talaga na mapifeel natin yung ganto. Ewan ko ba, but kailangan mafeel? Lol!
I read an article like this yesterday by miss Ruffa. She said the same, that she feels emptiness in her mind. She said she is fine too.
Hi Peter. Yes I read the same and even commented there as well. I am getting fine, maybe trying?
Maybe you are tired.
I guess so. Maybe I can have the rest I needed.
It's fine mamshy if you feel tired and demotivated today or yesterday but don't dwell on it for too long because as you said, you have your family who needs you. Pahuway gamay, padajon ig human.
Thank you mamshy! 💗 Ganiiii saon nalang gyud ug mugive up ko. Not because akoy gasupport, but because ang ilang bation if ever. Hays! Padayon lang gyud, mahuman ra ning tanan.
Korekkkkk
Pray ug padayon lang gyud.
Kaya pala malungkot mukha mo .. BTS meal lng sana para maibsan ng dinarama ng munting kaibagan ko HaHaHa Kaso wla na ehh
Gikilig kos munting kaibigan nimo. Hahaha 🤣🤣 Pero, pwede ra gyud ug di BTS Meal. Samgyupsalamat will do. Beke nemen. 🤤
Haha wWla Juy dada hahah layo pas sweldo haha
Ineg sweldo. Mag maoy ko kutob sweldo. 😉🤣
Everyday, I feel that I am just a robot programmed completely with what I need to do for a day. The same routine, repeatedly. I wanted to rest. The rest that I can really feel I am resting What about the people around me? What about my family who is depending on me? I really feeling theese lines huhu.
Dibaaa? Nakakapagod na e. Pero because of the reasons we have, need talaga na mucontinue. Matatapos din lahat to. Laban! 💗
Kaya nga. Laban Lang . Ayun Lang din iniisip ko lati e. Temporary Lang to.
Yes. Di din to magtatagal. Wag lang talaga magive up.
Yes. It is okay not to be okay. We experience sadness, darkness, but there is still happiness. That's how life works. Hopefully, you are feeling better now, for real. You too, Ate @Ruffa. ♥♥
Thank you my friend. I'm getting better? Hopefully. 💗
You're welcome, my friend. Fighting lang! ♥
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I find comfort that I am not alone in the struggle with this. Indeed we have to find it in us the will to fight and to go on. It's okay to cry. We have to welcome these feelings and emotions for us to know how to deal with them.
Yes. Embrace them instead of running away from them. That's how we can surpassed it all. Thank you for dropping by.
I wanted to rest.- Napaiyak na ko talaga...been feeling like this for past few days already..yung feeling mo okay ka lang at tumatawa ka sa post nang iba may pa "haha" ka pang nalalaman while deep inside your screaming for comfort and warmth.
mommyyyy! Anyare sa august. Nganung mao pay pag start inane na atong gibati? Huhuhu
lage baby oi...wa sad ko kahibaw nganu ko
Padayun lang gyud ta mmy. Mao naman gyud ni.
Sometimes, ing.ana sad jud baya ko mamsh uie. Di man jud siguro na mawa or malikayan ba nato nga maka.feel ug ing.ana. Ako gani karun, naglabad ahung o, bisan natug ko gikan, labad gihapon ahung o. Stress jud siguro naka.ingon or kuwang sa tubig or unsa ba..hihi Bitaw, padayon rata mamsh uie. "Its okay not to be okay." Dili man sa tanang panahon lagi nga malipayon atung kinabuhi. That's life baja. Minsan masaya, minsan din hindi.. Basta kahibaw ta nga naa si God, ma.okay ra ang tanan.. Kaya.... FIGHTING!!!💪🤞 God bless you mamsh!😇🙏
Thank youu so much mamshy! 💗 Lagi ay. Pagsuway ra gyud ni. Wala tay laing choice. Padayon lang gyud. 🤞 God bless you too, mamsh!
Yes mamsh.. Padayon ra jud.. Sa ginaingon mo na, "Hilak gamay, Padayon Dako!"..☺️
Thank you mamsh!
Aw miss jo! We do experience down time - a lot these days specially. Feeling heavy but not really able to put your finger into that one particular thing that makes it heavy. Maybe it is just one thing or maybe it is everything. Crying it out helps. It is ok not to be ok. Don't stay down too long. Fight on soldier! padayon!
Pichi Pichi. Thank you. 💗 Oo din. Di ko alam anong dahilan. Pero yun nga, iyal iyak tapos patuloy ulit. Laban Alaxan FR lang talaga tayo.
uu man. Hanap din ng things to make us laugh ba. :D
Oo din. Pero hanap din ako jowa, baka yun talaga nagpapalungkot sakin. Aigoo! Hahaha
It's normal to feel this way once in a while after all we all are humans. The ability to snap out of it quickly is what is rare to see in most human.
Yes HappyBoy. Instead of running away from it, why not surpass it? This is how life works, and we need to know how to play with it.
It's okay to feel that way. It is okay to feel down and not know what to do anymore. But yes, hilak lang ug gamay para mawala ang kasubo, ug kalagot. Unya tindog pud pagkahuman kay sayang ang kagwapa kung gagusbot ang nawong.
Lagiii ay! Hilak hilak lang, pero padayon gyud ug human. This is life naman gyud. Mao na ni. Let's just make it beautiful. Pero bisay diay sad ka snapping.turtle?
Loved this piece. So relatable. 💜
Thank you, Elle. 💗
Sincerely, I learnt something from your post. Even though you were pouring out your mind and thought, you gave out beautiful advise and encouragement. No matter what we are feeling or passing through, we need to remember our goals, future, ambitions, families and especially our dear self If we give up, we do not do ourselves any good. We need to have hope and trust in God because when we think and die, it will be our own loss. Thank you
Hi Princess. Good to hear that you learned something fr this one. Yes, we need to know the value of life God has given to us. Problems are problems. We need to embrace them all and not run away from them. Running away from them will make it more difficult. So fight it and overcome it.
Sometimes we really felt that way especially if we were so tired and we need to rest but we can't. But still, don't lose hopes that one day you can able to do things that aren't need of like a compliance thing. Laban lang pen, that's life ehhh, we need to encounter all of that for us to learn the value of life.
Lagi te ay. Padayon lang gyud. Embrace all these feelings and surpassed them all. Thank you te. 💗
This is so me yesterday, empty. Masaya pero emotionless, tulaley at laging lutang. Pero di naman ako problemado, dumadatinf lang talaga sa time na nagiging ganyan ako. Ilang beses naba to. Parang wala na katawam ko ung kaluluwa ko ee. Umalis siguro saglit dahil sa daming laman na puro pagkain kaya nagka gulo ahaha. Anyway, I hope you're okay now?
Ewan ko ba ate. Bigla bigla ko lang talaga siyang nararamdaman e. Parang okay na hindi. Paulit ulit lang. Siguro baka dahil to sa anxiety about the virus dito ey. Natatakot kasi ako. Pero ewan ko yun ba talaga. Haha Trying to be okay na ate. Laban Alaxan!
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