My own little dreams.

“The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.” Eleanor Roosevelt

Good thing, I am one of those who believe in their dreams. Dreaming is free. There's no payment for it. We can dream to the fullest.

When I was a child, I have a lot of dreams. I used to dream on becoming a flight attendant. I used to dream to go to Disney Land. I dreamt of wearing a pink ball gown on my 18th birthday and become a princess for a while. I dreamt of having a lot of toys.

Those were the dreams I have back then when I do not know how the world works yet. Not until I reached the right and matured age as I am now.

23 years living in this wonderful world.

To be honest, none of what I dreamt of becoming to way back how many years did not happen. Not even one of those happened for real. And that somehow makes me laugh how world treated me back then and until now for some reason. It makes me sad.

But it did not made me stop from dreaming. If I will not be remove out of the picture yet, I still want to reach my dreams. New dreams. Realistic one.

My biggest dream as of the moment is to build a house for my mom. I always pray to God to give my mom a lot of years to live. That is for me as well to have time to save and work hard so that I can give my mom the thing she wanted for so long. Yes, you read it right. My dream is fulfilling my mom's dream. I bet, fulfilling it is way much satisfying more than anything else.

But for me to be able to fulfill my mom's dream, I need to fulfill my own little dreams first.

And here's my top 3 little dreams I have to realize my mom's dream:

• I am dreaming of becoming much healthier

This is somehow a very unique dream anybody can have. I mean, most of us dreams of another thing. But for me as of the moment, this is the one I truly wanted to have. To be much healthier. I am actually not having a regular menstruation, and I know it is not normal. I am afraid to see a doctor because I do not want to know what's the reason for that. However, days like now I am starting to gain courage to see a doctor for me to know what to do to get a regular menstruation, and at least for me as well to know another thing to make me healthier. After all, it is my body that I need to take good care to continue working.

• Promotion

This is related to my work which the only means I have to make money. Actually, last month there was an opening for a staff position in our company. It is to be a Quality Assurance Analyst. My QA herself messaged me if I am willing to apply. But because of the lack of confidence I have, I declined it. Which somehow, I regret a little. But as always, I make sure to look at the brighter side of the situation. Maybe it was not yet the right time for me to become a QAA, that is why. However, this time I already gained some of my confidence and belief that if ever I will be a QAA, I can handle. So right now, I am dreaming and hoping that another door of opportunity will open, and for sure I'm going to get it in there this time.

• Not to worry about the future

To be honest, I am pressured somehow of the things I am seeing around. I mean, I am seeing other people already reaching their dreams and I am not yet with mine. Like, I sometimes asked if I can make it in the end. If I can be the person I wanted to be. If I can fulfill my dreams and the dreams I have for others. It all worries me. And that is why, I am dreaming on not worrying on things that I cannot even control. I am dreaming that I would have the courage to think of what is in the present because that it what matters. And I wanted to believe that what I am doing here in the present times, will reflect in the near future. I actually read a line that says, "Stop worrying about the future. Nobody knows what future may hold." And that made me realize that instead of worrying about what may happen, I can enjoy what's in the present and work hard to fulfill goals.

Are my dreams to shallow to ask for? I do not know, but I am considering them as dreams as I still need to work hard for it for me to get them all. And I believe that there's no dream that are shallow enough to be called of. I mean, we are free to dream and as long as we believe on the dreams we considered to be, with work hard and perseverance, we can turn them out to reality in no time. Patience is always a virtue. It will never change.

- MissJo 💜

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