Unsent Letter to Him

Hey, how are you? Are you doing fine? How was your mom? Does she still treat you like a baby? How was your dad? Does he still scold you when you go home late without permission? How was you r little sister? Does she still have this cute little scar on her knees and elbow because we fell on the bike during those summer days that we spend in your place? I'm still glad that you're still that person who always choose others more than himself.

It's been what? 4 or almost 5 years without seeing each other hahaha I just kinda scared because you're taller than me the last we met but I don't know if you gain more height. Now I look like your little sister I thought so hahaha. Hey I missed you so much, you are really a grown up man right now huh. I'm still not sure if we could met again because you're too busy and too far to hang out with me.

I missed you, I missed those silly smile of yours when you found something that you know will annoyed me.

I missed those eyes who's always curve out like a cresent moon when you laugh. I missed it when it only looks at me the way that makes me like a special person to you.

I missed those moments where you just wait for me after school and just go hang out at my place or your place. Hahhaha I remember watching you cried when your dad was so angry because you stay a night with your friends and you call me early korning just to make sure your dad is gone to work and no ones at your home. But I lied because I'm close to your dad and your mom. I watched you cry and your face was so red while looking at me. That's the day you're so very annoying, you're so mad at me to the point that you want me to leave you because I'm so annoying and making you laugh, I apologized for the whole afternoon until I just gave up and let you but you stop sulking when I invited you to come with me and eat street foods. Ypu really love it.

Walking hand in hand down the street while the waiting for the sunset is the most favorite thing that we do. It's normal for us to do this, having this close proximity, acting like a domestic couple but in the reality, we are just a couple of friends.

Friends yes you are my bestfriend, I'm writing this this because I never have the courage to say that I liked you for a long time, It's not love at first sight because it happens in one rainy afternoon, when you were just reading a book beside me who's always busy watching movies in your place, I just happen to looked at you and that's it, I don't know if it just the weather or it's just I just see myself together with you, coffee, books, raindrops and a cold weather, it just fits perfectly. The sight is so calming, the sight of you, so that time I started to fell when I shouldn't.

I'm not good on words but I know that these feeling that I have already expressed when we are together, gosh you're so dense hahaha but yeah I fall and it's my fault.

I supposed to be your bestfriend, I supposed to tell you things but this one is really so hard to say so yeah I liked you... No scratch that I loved you but it's in the past now. I know you have your person rightnow but I hope we reunite again because I'm to sick of messaging you hahaha you're still such a crazy guy I met. Anyways thank you for the friendship and I always look forward to seeing you if this pandemic end. I missed your province also your family. They are also like a family to me hahaha. Take care always.

So yeah for those who read my article "Reminiscing first dance" the man that danced with me is the same man in this letter. By the way I've just leave it here, I'm too tired, I'm sick for a day now, I hope I get better if I sleep early tonight. Goodnight everyone! Also please take care and stay hydrated because having a flu is a no joke, I still take my final exam for acads this afternoon even I'm not feeling well. So stay safe guys!