My heart belongs to you

I'm still afraid to say what I feel about you, I care about you more than you know, but all I can do is to just stare at you at distance, loving you from a far, it's silly of me how I fell so hard to you even without thinking if you can catch me too, but as a fool of this kind of matter, even knowing that you will never love me back in a way that I want too, at the end of the day, I found myself waiting for the whole day for you and say the three words that I failed to say directly to you

Three words I will always be willing to say to you if I still have the chance to and never get tired of, I'm very lucky that I met you, God let me see the beauty in this life and one of it is in the form of a person who gives me a precious beautiful perspective in life, you let me be myself and be free to do anything that makes me happy and full,

I'm so inlove to the things you did for me, I will never get tired of loving you, you let me see the beauty in everything you do, you taught me to embrace this life, you made my existence much more special. You made me believe that in every darkness there will alway be a light that will be waiting for us, that in every ending there's a new beginning. You change my life 360 and I will never get tired of being grateful for doing that.

All my life I was asking for a plot twist that will turn my world upside down but then you came and just let me feel in a roller coaster of emotion that everyday when I'm with you, I feel pain and at the same time heaven, I fell sk secure and safe with uou but pains me to see him hugging you and much more pain when I see you loving him with all of you, what could I do? I'm just a friend who's there to accompany you, but I'm such a fool and a masochistic one, to be with you feels like hugging a rose full of torns, the more I let myself be with you, the more pain I'm embracing too,

But what can I do, heart can't be taught of who else would it beat for, just one day I just realized I fall so much, I love you so much to the point that I'm willing to be with you even it cause me so much pain, I'm still there supporting you.

When he hurts you. I'm always there for you...

I'm sorry if your bestfriend is such a coward when it comes to you, not even brave to hug you when I see you hurting because of him, I'm afraid to see the pain in your eyes when you realized I wasn't him that you needed to, I'm just there sitting next to you, letting you feel my presence, if only I can hug you right now, if only I can make you face me and tell me all the pains and I will wash them away, if only I can wipe those tears flowing from your face and I will lead you to my chest and let you feel the fast beating of my heart, but I can't.

I'm still here watching you, loving you, I spend my hours, months, years watching you from faraway, hoping that you can see me and let me love you, I wanted to tell you words that he failed to tell you, I wanted you to feel love, I wanted to give you my all but I just can't,

I just can't because of one reason, of one accident that happens, you were there with him until a white flashing car hits you accidentally, and your heart ruptures, I'm there and willling to to stay with you, I cried a bucket of tears, I cried until it dried my eyes out, until I found myself in an operating room ready to give and commit myself to you, I'm ready now, I'm ready to say that I love you in a way that forever be with you, always and forver you will feel this heart of mine beating only for you,

I love you my dear so much that I'm willing to give my own heart for you to live...

My heart belongs to you... Forever.

The end.

Even I myself was already on the verge of sadness when I'm writing this one, can't help but to feel sad hahha kidding I never failed to satisfy myself through painful stories I fabricated, gosh what if this happens to me for real, it really excites me gosh haha okay I'm crazy to have a mindset like this.

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