Glimpse of Scar

Ever had that person you really loath so much that you wish you never meet them at first, but then there's still that realization that you once been part of their lives and also they are to you, but because of such a twist in life that both of you just need to break the bond and separate ways because of one thing done by another,

This is just a random writing of me, because I don't know hahha kidding,

Anyways, when I encountered someone and just so randomly and unexpectedly just create a good bond that we thought would really last for a long time, that's the best feeling,

Meeting a stranger then became your close one and just the world will so great that you feel loved and care by a stranger you met once then just suddenly changed your world, not literally change but just add more color and fun to your journey of adventure of this life, like you haven't have any idea how come this who knows who is this human creature ypu have beside and be this close and just became like a family to you,

But life has its own way to put more twist in your life, it's really full of surprises that those unexpected things became expected and just those stuffs comes rushing on your way like a bomb ready to explode,

This close person of yours done something that makes you loath and hate him/her, the once great bond dismantled, the closeness get eradicated, the love turns to hatred, the smiles turns into tears, the laughter turn into shoutings and firebacks of words you both didn't really meant.

I want to share my experience by this kind of feelings I had back then...

So I was in my junior years when I met this girl, I never thought I would be talking to this topic again haha, anyways this just my way of opening again the door that once been locked, because she literally just messaged me a while ago and I can't help but to think of it haha but okay let's go back to the topic...

Back then I wasn't really an outgoing and a social butterfly because I was so lazy to interact with people in that grade, I just observed and talk back when someone talks to me firat, so there's this girl that so loud and she became my seatmate and I can't help but to be irritated by her loudness, but then whe she became absent for days hahaha I admit I was a little bit worried and my day seems so boring without her nonstop talking,

So when she got back another day I asked the reason of her absence haha she just smiled to my question and release a small chuckle like what's funny with asking her, she just shake her head that time and I was about to snap out of her way when she held my arms and just tap my head like ogosh this girl, then by that she tells me because of her sickness then just and those I don't really quite remember hhaha.

So after that I be like lowering my walls to her, then just became friends with her, then became besties, but then somthing happen that really makes me angry, I will not mentioned what shed did because it's personal then by that I got angry and loathed her so much, I never talked to her agin after that confrontation we had...

Its been almost 8 years since I never talked to her but sometimes haha I know it's so corny but I'm just hoping that maybe sometimes in a busy crowded places, I'm hoping to catch a glimpse of her again, like hoping to catched up again even says our hi and hellos again one time, but that's life cutting off people like this is much better,

It is hard but we need to for the sake of your sanity haha but really guys it depends on you how you will handle things like this, as for me second chances is not in my vocabulary, but I think I should fixed it now this is a long almost forgotten overrated story between her but yeah

So a while ago I recieved a message from her haha because I really see her unexpectedly in a coffee shop nearby because I'm with my bestfriend because we decided to meet and hangout to grab some coffee because he still owed me an explanation for something, but then when I look at the door haha gosh I see that familiar face of her but I decided to look away when she noticed I'm looking haha my bestfriend snap me out of my thoughts because he notice I'm nlt listening to him haha so I just busied myself and focus on my bestfriend says,

But one thing in my mind haha she literally looked at our direction then just by that it's like her stares are so anguish to see so when we go out at the cafe and my bestfriend take me home, I decided to open my phone and recieved a message in my twitter account haha that's it I already knew who's that and there she is haha saying hi to me...

Will end this here guys hahaha I will be thinking if I would reply or not to her haha.

Lead image source:

https://medium.com/@fireflyskitters/in-the-time-of-coronavirus-i-miss-coffee-shops-262b891b87df

That's it for now guys, been so much today, I've just had a deep conversation with my bestfriend, and he literally explain to me everything because I'm still sulking when he kept a secret from me, it's cliché and corny yet we promised back then that no secrets to each other, be mirror to one another, a transparent soul to soul, but then he kept a secret to me. How can he haha kidding but still I'm upset yet I understand why but still, but now we're both okay we had a coffee while he explains everything, it's just between us hehez not gonna tell here anything about it.

Anyways how was you weekend guys? Happy Saturday everyone, hope you enjoy your weekend, stay hydrated and keep safe everyone.