For You I will

This is me asserting my feeling to you, I know it's hard to admit this but my mind is already set, I will finally let out this uncertainties, and unexplainable feeling I keep on hiding for so long,

I knew I grasp too much and too tight because I'm hoping for a little glimpse of hope that maybe if I hold on for so long, maybe if I clasp myself to you, just maybe someday you will just realized that you love me too,

But I was wrong, I was wrong for hoping that you will feel the same way if I did that, yet I will never regret those moments, those minutes, those seconds, that I spend with you, I will never forget the melancholy and bliss that I got to feel when I'm with you, it's ironic isn't it? Even I knew to myself that being with you can maim my heart and soul...

Yet loving you is like a holding a rose, you are the flower that I want to keep for myself forever, yet your torns pricked me and slowly agonized myself, keeping you in my arms is like tormenting myself, but who am I to complain, your a re a beautiful unique rose that attracts everyone in a mysterious way that i can't explain...

I learned a lot on the short span of time being with you, I learned how to feel alive, to find a purpose, to live this life with a smile, to love people and to love you in a billion ways I can't imagine...

When I met you, it feels like my monotonous black and white life turns into a magical, colorful, interesting and worth living one, meeting you was the best thing that I will always treasure, when I met you, I feel like I want to be the better me, I want to be someone whos better, I wanna be someone whos better and deserved for you, yet in order to do that I must let you go, I will never force you to love me the way I love you, I'm enough and contended to be part of your journey, to be the character in your story, not the main lead yet it is enought to be with you,

This is really the pains of being the victim of falling inlove to the someone who can't love me back, yet I will never regret it, I just love you, I just love... But that's when I realized that love that I was pertaining became toxic that I do things that I shouldn't do.

Now I love you, and I always will, yet I'm letting you go, I already know from the start that I can't be him, I can't be the person that will makes your life sunshine and rainbows, I can't fulfill those pages of your book, and you can reciprocate my love for you, I'm finally letting you go because in the first place I have no right to because you never been mine, and I'm sorry I still try, I'm sorry if I fall for you, I'm sorry...

For you I will step back and let you go, funny that even now I still love and care for you and that will never change, good bye my wonderful sin, loving you is a sin but I'm willing to commit, if loving you is forbidden then I'm willing to risk. I'm willing to endure grasp this pain, I'm willing to be a sinful if that's okay but I know even after all I'm still not your lifetime, I'm just a sinner for loving you. Why loving the same gender is consider as sinful thing, love doesn't have genders, the definition of love is for everyone to feel, we do not choose who we fell for and that's the reality, I LOVE YOU AND THANK YOU.

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https://www.centralofsuccess.com/100-inspirational-quotes-about-moving-on-and-letting-go-quotes/4/

https://www.centralofsuccess.com/100-inspirational-quotes-about-moving-on-and-letting-go-quotes/4/

https://www.istockphoto.com/photo/man-squeezing-rose-thorns-and-bleeding-low-key-gm108176466-4507400

https://hackspirit.com/how-to-let-go-of-someone-you-love/

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A random stuff to write because this is the last day of February, and I was just scrolling to my twitter acvount and saw a post of a colleague of mine they broke up actually they are both boys yet I'm shock because of that naku dadaldalin ko talaga sila this weekend anways time flies so fast, and I really don't know how I spend my whole February like that it's just so overwhelming and stressful haha anyways have a great night everyone, Happy Monday enjoy and stay hydrated🤗