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Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

This is the first few lines of the song Pain by Three Days Grace. Now you know that I am such an emo kid when I was younger.

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You might be thinking why I am talking about pain. I just want to share with you how I do handle pain, not emotional but physical pain.

Pain that we commonly experience is headache, muscle pain, back pain or stomach pain.

In my case, I usually feel back pain. Getting pregnant and giving birth worsened the pain too. Oh did I forget getting anesthesia when I gave birth? Damn, one more reason to feel the pain more.

I can say when I was a kid, I am pretty much a strong person (physically). Among four of us siblings, I am the one who was treated or acted like a boy in the family. I was the one who do heavy stuff. I used to help my parents carry or move heavy stuff around the house. If they need someone to cut a wood, I would be the one to take the saw and cut it. I would be the one who assist in hammering nails, painting walls. I would be the one who carried hollow blocks, sack of rice or even buckets of pail water. I didn't mind because that's all I can do to help.

Backpain

I didn't experience backpain until last 2019. I began feeling the pain almost everyday. I also used to ask my workmates to crack my back because it gives me relief.

One night my workmates and I went out for a drink. My friend, Chris, picked me up and while we were driving on our way he noticed that I was trying to crack my back again, byt he way, he was the one who usually cracks my back. He told me to have it checked because it might be scoliosis, so I did.

I consulted a doctor, did the xray and then there was a slight curve to the left, Levoscoliosis of the thoracic spine is what's indicated on the diagnosis. It is a mild condition but can get worse through time.

Medicine?

The doctor only prescribed pain relievers.

I've tried other pain relievers too but the only one that works on me is the Norgesic Forte. According to my OB and other doctors that I've consulted about different issues, Norgesic Forte is a strong pain reliever. One doctor prescribed a different pain reliever but it only had a little and shorter effect on me. It didn't relieve me at all. After I gave birth, my OB prescribed the Celecoxib pain reliever for my chest pain. She prescribed it because I am acidic.

I had the chance to take it during the election day because we have to wait in line for a few hours and I stood up too long. I took it during dinner time so I can be relieved before I sleep, unfortunately, it didn't have any effect. I took another one again just to know if it will have an effect. It didn't work for the second time. I was about to go to sleep but my back pain worsened, I want to cry. I want to sleep. I can't sleep and I am breastfeeding Lil B at the same time. I didn't know what to do, I took the Norgesic Forte. Goodness gracious, it worked. I was relieved of the pain and slept.

By the way, I don't take pain relievers often. I only take it when the pain is unbearable, if the pain can't put me to sleep.

Tattoo pain

This is another form of pain that I can take. I can't deny na I love pain, that's why the title is Masochistic me.

Just like from the song above, I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all. Yes, pain makes me feel alive. That I am still human.

I don't like emotional pain because it eats me. Eats my soul. That's why I turn my emotional pain to physical pain. That's why I have tattoos.

Pregnancy

I know that I have a high pain tolerance and I was ready to feel my first labor pain or to endure the pain while giving normal birth. Unfortunately, I had an emergency C-section. I didn't feel any labor pain, I only felt a very very light pain as if a finger is poking me. I can't deny that I was a little disappointed and concerned to be injected with an anesthesia.

Having C-section even worsened my back pain condition. My back aches everyday, it aches if I stand too long even for 5mins. It aches if I sit on a hard surface. It aches if I lie on a very soft bed too. The pain is everywhere on my back, upper, mid even lower. The most painful part was on the tailbone. Then I still have to carry Lil B sometimes.

We get stronger and better whenever we experience pain. We are humans, it's natural for us to feel pain. Don't worry you're not alone. We are all here to listen and help with the pain.

Any forms of pain are welcome except pocket or wallet pain. Char!!

Good night and happy father's day to all fathers!