07.21.22

Presence of something or someone makes you miss them on their absence. Maybe this is to balance life and we have to figure out for ourselves on how should we cope up with it.

Welcome to my 16th day on my 30-day writing challange. Whew, I am halfway through it and I am hoping to see a new one soon.

Something that I miss.

There's a few actually and most of it were just things that I used to do before I gave birth.

• Gaming

I know hahaha! I don't usually play mobile or pc games but I find it relaxing when I get to play. I remember playing Batman Asylum on it's 1/100 game mode when I am not on a good mood to release my frustrations.

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I get to smash 100 people coming in and I try to do a goal of not breaking the combo.

Since I can't play yet, I am telling my husband to play that mode in Arkham Knight to release his stress.

• Drinking

Keep in mind that I am an occasional drinker, but when the pandemic hit I felt like I needed to drink to make me sleep. Good thing that habit stopped when I got pregnant.

I still don't drink alcohol yet because I am breastfeeding. I remember the time that I drank 1 glass of red wine and my breastmilk almost ran out. I got scared and I don't want to let that happen again. But I still do miss drinking hahahahah!

• Going out with friends

Among four of us, I am the first one who got to have a family. I don't go out much because I am a full time mom. There are times that I get to see them go out without me and I miss those times too. I miss the times that we got to go somewhere and do nothing but trashing each other's decisions in life. I miss the times where in we don't seem to care about time when we are together. In fact, we still seem not to care about the time when we are together but now I remind them to go home because SassaGorl will go to bed hahahahah!

• Cursing people

I know, I know! hahahahaha! I curse, a lot. If you know me personally, you would see the difference of me cursing as an expression/ filler and cursing with feelings. I think I got that habit when I hangout with my guy friends back then.

Now I got to limit cursing because I don't want to sound like a f*(#@) bad mother. Char! It's just that at my baby's age, she's starting to understand words and imitate the sound so no bad words for mommah hahahaha!

• Drive dates with Husband

My husband and I dated for a few months and got married after a year. When we were still dating, we get to drive around because he's spontaneous like that. We go somewhere not planned because all we care was just the two of us.

We will soon drive or go somewhere as a family but things are needed to be planned. Having a toddler or baby requires more things and effort when traveling.

• Working

I am one of the mother who misses having my own money and job. I miss working so I can provide for myself at least.

Since I got to be a full time mom, a job with no salary and 24/7 duty, the only thing that I can do to help my husband is to take care of our SassaGorl, breastfeed her and do other stuff that I can do to lessen the expenses.

I am very thankful that my husband appreciates it. The other day he thanked me for taking care of our baby and I love hearing that. It really takes 2 to tango.

What a rainy morning here in Metro Manila. There are sudden turn of events lately so our plans have changed.

Just like my bestfriend always say, 'we are looking for better days.'

Fishout!

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