I thought He is the One.

I love Lloyd, and I'd do anything for him. In fact we have been together for seven years, I was so sure that He Is The One.

My dream was to finish college, but my parents cannot support my studies. The fact that we are 7 siblings, making it more hard for my Mother to send me to college. So instead of continuing to study I work to the nearby province in an Electronic company in Laguna and support my next siblings to finish his college. The work and night shift at first, was hard but I begun to slowly adopt with the environment. I was living then with my aunt, and there I met Lloyd. Nothing special. He was just this gullible man and he knows how to make a girl melt.

I haven't been involve with any relationship then, so everything was new to me. There will be times, that he will send me off to my work place and won't let me pay a cent because his parents own a tricycle and he drive it. And when its my night shift he will appear on the corner asking me to ride with him in a way you don't have the option but agreed. He is persistent and I feel like, I am being cherished and the attention he was giving me, makes me more attached and flattered. And that went on for a year, until one day the gullible man didn't appear. I feel so sad and disappointed, though we haven't talked about what was the score between us, I still feel connected to him. And I have this feeling the need to talk to him how much he means to me.

After weeks of not showing, he then appear in front of me, I refused to talk to him and avoided him. But his begging face had me second thoughts about ignoring him. He told me stories and that he was away for weeks because he was arranging some paperwork for his studies so he can enter to college. I was so happy for him! And it made me even more fall for him. Because he has dreams. And then he told me how much he missed me and if we can take it to the next level. I was so embarrassed to say that I abruptly, nodded my head for an agreement. And he kissed me in my cheek and hug me and saying his thank you and that he will be a good boyfriend. The following months and the next years was a bliss, we are very happy and I couldn't asked for more. Texts and dates he occupies all my free time.

Though in between those years he had to stop after his two semester because something happened to his family that he had to work. He stopped and work in the same company as mine for three years. As for me, I am still at the same position but with higher salary, as I have been loyal to the company from the very beginning.

Until, we realize that we are not getting any younger and that, we needed to upgrade ourselves, he realize he still want to pursue his college, and I agreed though, I too want to take college, I let him take it first. He study, I work to pay for his studies and that went for 3 years. He was at the last year of college when, everything has change, he failed his two subjects and that extended him more for another semester. He becomes more unfocused and I can see us falling apart. He changed, I know and I am seeing it in front of my eyes.

I believed for seven years that he was the one for me, and I made sure not to give up on us. I make an effort to help him to his studies, and I go with him to his apartment, cook for him, and get so bobo over him. I exerted so much effort even bought him a motorbike for his caprice. He always complains about me having him guarded and that our relationship becomes toxic. But to still saved our relationship I lowered all my principles and dignity to save it but it came to a point that I get tired. We get tired and that leads us to our break up. But being delusional as I am I begged for us. I believed then that I can no longer love someone as intense as I love him, and he is my first everything and that he should be the last.

I begged, and begged many times, but he did not reconsider. And I begun to asked my self, why? Am I ugly? Am I too much? Am I lacking something? Is it because he is already a graduate now and I am not? I blamed myself and question my worth! Am I not worth to keep? And all the question was answered when I saw him with another girl. Ahhhh kaya pala ayaw ng sumubok pa e, sumubok na sa iba.

I cried for months after knowing it. I was lucky to have won a gift card from the company I work and I have two days vacation to spent on Maniwaya Island Marinduque. And there good things begun.

And when I thought, I won't fall in love again, I failed on that, I was so sure I did fall in love again. And this time it was with the right person. I met him at Maniwaya Island, an Island hopper, and I can say it was a whirlwind romance. He proposed to me after 3 months of courtship and we get married not an extravagant one, but I am sure, he maybe not my firsts, but he will always be the one and the last.

I am also now a teacher graduate and I already have a 3 year old son. My husband is a good provider and he works abroad from time to time.

The only advice I can give is, if a man can let you go and throw, he is not the one for you. And love not because you have been with that person for long, doesn't mean he is the one for you.

As for lloyd, he begged me to come back to him during my husbands courtship but I was sure, I loved him, but I realized he is not the one for me. I didn't heard any news about him after knowing that he went away in their province after getting the girl pregnant.

T H A N K S F O R R E A D I N G !!

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