Valentine Heartache

For me, Long Distance relationship doesn't exist or maybe it's not applicable to me. I don't want to enter to this kind of relationship cause I believe that it's only have two ending, it's either he becomes tired on me or I'm the one who can't handle our situation. But in some instance, this perception of mine neglected. Since I talked to you, I can say that LDR is not bad at all but I have still a doubt if we are the end game. Did we?

I'm Mareigh, 22 and currently working as a marketing manager. I'm single and I don't have a plan to enter to any romantic relationship. I've been in a relationships before but all of them leave me for same reason, they found someone better than me. That's why I don't believe on LDR because they prove to me that even we already spend time to each other everyday, they can still able to fooled me. They leave me like an old clothes that they didn't need at all. I admit that feeling is still embarked here in my heart. My attention is only at worked after that. Sometimes my parents and friends got angry to me because they say that I should find another one but I refuse because I got traumatized to enter to a relationship .

One time, I got so bored so I scrolled in my social media and suddenly there's someone who send his friend request to me. At first I'm so hesitant to confirm his request but it seems that there's someone who whispered at me to accept that one, so I click the confirm. Less than a minute after accepting, I received a message from him,

" Hi, I'm Carlo. Thanks for accepting me".

I don't know why but it seems that my hand have its own mind, it's immediately replied " I know you are Carlo, your name is already revealed in your profile right?" I thought that he will ignore me because of that attitude I showed to him but he responded " Your so cute huh. Don't be like that , I easily fell on that kind of woman". Now, I'm the one who got irritated. I didn't replied on him and just ignore his messages. Yes, since that night he always send a message like ,

" Good morning. Have a great day".

" Take you breakfast and take care always"

" Don't be too hard to yourself, take a break and have some coffee"

" Good night. You did a great job today. I always include you in my prayers".

I didn't replied on any of that messages. He did that for almost three months and I can't deny that I always wait for his messages. It seems that it becomes my reminder that there's someone who's till there for me. But wait, did I fell for him already? I guess not. But I also believe that there's nothing wrong if I befriend to him right? So, I replied to his message and from that time, we became a good friend. We shared random things like what happened to our day, our life and even our problems. I found that he is currently in Canada and he is the breadwinner of the family. His father leaves them for other girl,that's why he promise to his mom that he do everything to protect and support the family. He also promise that he will not becomes like his Dad. Day by day I adore Carlo deeply, his nice, family oriented and gentleman. I asked him why he suddenly send a friend request to me but he said that it seems that he got love at first sight on my profile picture. Haha but can't deny that now, I also have feelings for him. I can't confirm if is just an admiration or I'm in love with her.

He courted me and I agree with that. I want to know more about him. And the truth is, it seems that my day is not complete without talking to him. Sometimes, we also do video calls and I can say that he is also handsome. He is the only that could listen to my rants in life. He makes me feel safe even we are not physically together. He makes me feel happy in just a simple message. He helps me to love myself more and to see the beauty of life. Everyday, he shows how he loves me so much. So after a year of courting stage, I give my " Yes" to him. For all of his efforts, he deserve that yes. We are so happy being together. I said that LDR doesn't exist to me but it seems that he proves to me that love conquers all, even the distance. We are kilometers away but our hearts seems to be intact to each other. I've been in a relationship but this feeling is different, it seems that I became complete again.

" Love, I have a surprise to you". He said while watching me eating my lunch.

" What is it love? Don't tell me that you go here and live with me? I really like that if so" I always said to him that I want to hug and kiss him not on the screen but on physical aspect. I want to touch the man who completes me.

" Yahh finally, I can come home there. I can finally see and hugs you". He said with full of excitement.

" Really? I can't wait love, I will wait for you. If you go here, I will not let you go. You will stay here by my side forever".I am also so excited hearing those words from him. My man is coming.

" My flight is a day before that Valentine's day ,so I guess we could celebrate it together and as well as Anniversary. I can't wait to see you Love and yeah, I will never leaves you".

" Wahh, it's the best anniversary gift ever." I can't hide my excitement. Since he said that ,I got busy to prepared everything. I want him to feel that he is really import to me. And it is also a hearts day and our anniversary as well so I make sure that I prepare something special. My ghad, I can't really believe that my man is coming home to me.

It is the day that I've waited for too long. I woke up early and prepared myself before going to the airport. He told me not to pick him up but I want to surprise him so I still go there. I'm now ready and in my way to the airport. He said that his flight schedule is 3PM. It's still 1PM so I have a lot of time waiting for him. After an hour, I arrive at the airport. It's too early but I can endure waiting for my man. I didn't noticed the time because of excitement. I don't also care if other people hears me sing because I'm really happy.

It's already 5PM and he is not here. Did he played hide and seek on me? Did he didn't see me? I talked to the airport's staff to asked if that flight schedule is already arrive but she just ignored me so I force myself to go inside but they stopped me and " Sorry Ma'am you can't go inside , there's an accident happened". My heart's stops for a while because of what I've heard. Accident? What kind of accident is it? I tried to called his phone but it is off. Then I saw a lot of people crying and shouting " No, it can't be". I'm got so nervous but suddenly there's someone who stopped in front of me carrying a mysterious thing. I don't know why but I urge myself to open that thing and my knees shaken to see what inside of it. The mysterious thing is a black plastic bag and there's a dead person inside. And you are right, it is Carlo who is in the bag. I can't explain what I feel right now. I hug him and force him to woke up,

" Love wake up, don't dare to prank me. I'm here".

" Ma'am, there's an accident happened. The plane didn't able to land on its proper way and by trying, the plane suddenly crash. I'm sorry Ma'am it's not a prank , your boyfriend is gone. " The staff said to me and he handled a letter and a box to me.

" No, Love wake up. Please wake up. You promise me that you didn't leave me right". I cried over and over again. I can't accept the fact that my man is now gone forever. I open the letter and he write this one,

Dear Love,

This is the day that we've waited for so long. Finally, I can talk, touch hug and kiss you personally. But there's something wrong on my feelings and I can't explain what is that. I write this letter because maybe it's gonna be the last letter that I can able to write for you. Don't worry, it's just a matter that I think that I don't need a letter anymore because I will be with you forever. I love you forever and you always the only one who stole my heart. Just I promise, I don't leave you and the ring in the box is the witnessed of it. Now, I want to be officially be your home. Will you marry me? Oops ,don't answer yet because I will asked you this tomorrow at our Valentines /Anniversary date. I'll never get tired to says I love you to you. Take care always Mi amore ".

Love,

Carlo

I looked at the ring and it's the most beautiful ring that I've ever see. I wear it but I'm not excited anymore. I couldn't say my " Yes" anymore because he already left me. It seems that the world doesn't want me to be happy. I don't know if I can still move on from this. It's too much and I just want to end my life. Why you let me feel this way? Why you left me despite that you know that I can't leave without you? Can you take me there with you Love? I just sighed while whispering the word " I love you". Its not the ending that I want but I can't do anything because destiny gives me a nightmare to be our ending.

Greetings!!

Happy Hearts Day crazy dreamers 👋👋 How's your Feb 14? Did you celebrate it with a special someone or with your family? I celebrated my Heart's day through dinner with the whole fam. Until now, I'm so full because of the foods hihi. I hope that you enjoy this day as well. And don't forget that it's not only on Valentine's day that we show our loves to our love ones, it should be everyday. Show them how you love them , make more happy memories being together. Haply Hearts day and enjoy the rest of this night hihi💚💚