If I could only erase my Memories, I definitely choose to do so

I'm already looking forward for a long weekend even it is only October 19 hehe. Why weekdays is so stressful like this? I know that those peeps who still have many workloads for this week also feel the same as I am. Tiring and it is a lot of body pains especially backache but I believe that it is worth it when all of those activities/ schedule remarked as done.

"The world is so deceitful. Why memories still walking on my mind even though the person already forget about me? Maybe that's life, memories will gonna stay but people don't".

I heard those line from the radio of my neighbor. Their sound is so loud to the point that I can't even focus on reviewing my notes. It's already 12 noon so I guess they listening on the drama in radio. I don't know what exactly called to that thing but it is kind of story mostly love story that a sender send to the DJ then later he/she will give her advices to the sender. Something like that. I remember that my older brother fond of listening to that kind of drama in radio. But I don't hear what particular station is that or maybe it is something different from what I think haha.

Based on what I heard, it seems that the sender is heart broken and she can't still move on from her past relationship. I even asked myself the same question, " Why memories stay and people don't?". Of course, I am also the one who answered my question since I am the only person here in our house. Question and answer portion with myself haha. I believe that memories still lingering in our mind because we are still not move on from the person. We've been stuck living on that moment. On the other hand, there is circumstances that memories will be remembered forever even though we don't want because it is the only thing that could remind us about the person. The real fact is, memories won't change but the person will probably change. Intentionally or not, people will change because we are all aware that change is the only permanent thing in the world. Sometimes unexpected scenario would lead that person to change in an instant.

Going back on the story in radio as I've listen well to the story time, I found out that their relationship was not given a proper break up since of what happened to the boy. The boy suddenly forget about her, everything about them. The sender also said that her boyfriend have severe disease which lead him to have an amnesia. I forgot what exactly that disease but she mentioned it. Even she wanted to stay, the boy is the one who keep pushing her away. Of course, he can't remember the girl so probably that would be his actions. Sad that the sender will now only have those memories with him. Those memories that will keep hunting her. What's more sad about it is, the boy didn't intentionally leave or forget about her but because of his disease, their happy ending seems not to happen. I hope that their memories will help the boy to remember his love.

At first, I thought that it only happens in the TV drama but I couldn't imagine how much pain have the sender right now that it happens to her in real life. The last part of the letter said " I'm forever grateful to meet and love him but if only memories could be erase, definitely I choose to do so. It's not that I regretting having him on my past but it is those memories who keeps hurting me even more. By erasing my memories ,maybe both of us can live happily again, but separately". Hearing those line seems like I'm cutting an onions. It triggers my eyes to the point that it release a tears. I imagine myself I'm having the same situation, aackk it's too much to handle. Probably, it is one of the saddest real love story that I've even heard in my life. But just like what the sender said, if she can't erase those memories maybe she will just live on that scene forever.

That drama changes my mood suddenly. I am thinking about the sender the whole day and I lost my focus until now. I even tried to be attentive to my class but that I keep thinking about that. The sender and me is the same, we both can't still move on from their love story haha. So yeah, I guess that's for tonight's blog since I can't write with substance anymore. Look until here, I am thinking that story lol haha. Have a great ahead!