Current Status: Living

Studying.

Hustling.

Working.

Dreaming.

Loving myself

Healing myself

And Finding myself.

It would probably the status that suited to me. Aside from the important people in my life, myself is my top priority for now. It's not that I'm closing the door to someone but I believe that I should fix myself first before letting another person to enter in my life. Dealing in everyday living is not easy especially when you need to juggle and balance two things at once. I'm just started to try how be alive again and honestly, I really enjoy the company of myself. Definitely, " To live and to be alive" is my state now and I'm happy as of the moment.

Someone asked me if I am not sad because I'm single right now. I asked him back " Do I look sad? Why would I?" For me, we should not be sad if we are the only one who is single in our circle of friends especially that if it's our personal choice to be like that. He asked me that because all of my college friends is taken and some of them is already married. Actually, I'm inactive yesterday because I attend to the civil wedding of my friend and 8 months from now, I'll be a godmother of their baby girl. I'm happy for them because I can sense that they really love each other and their relationship will last forever. I really hope so. Honestly, I thought that I went to a triple date because all of them bring their partners while me, I go there all by myself haha. They teasing me that I am the seventh wheel to them but at least I'm not problematic because of boys. I'm happy seeing them happy and I'm also happy because I feel like I also committed to a serious relationship. Not to a particular person but committed to my family and to my friends. Maybe,I'm already contented for the love I get from them to the point that I'm not searching for a romantic love. I believe that we should not rushed that kind of thing. Take it easy but sure.

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Other thing, there's also someone from this platform who asked me if I am broken hearted because most of my fiction story have a sad ending. Or maybe I am recently broke up with my boyfriend. But the real answer to that question is No. Maybe I'm broken hearted but not because on my boyfriend because honestly, I have none. I am single for 21 years,meaning single since birth haha. But if you would asked me if I already fell in love? Of course but maybe it's more on admiration. The reason why most of my story is sad ending because I really love to watch or read a story with that kind of genre. And also as a reminder to everyone that not all relationship/ story will lead to happy ending. Even we avoid it or not, there's a chapter in our life that we feel so sad and broken.

Living. My goal is to fulfill all of my plans and dreams for myself and for my family. I'm not totally abandoning love because I believe that we really need that but I'm for living for now. I'm already satisfied in breathing in order to do the things that can makes me move to achieve all of those "manifest". For now, my world rotates for " growing, learning, enjoying and for being Me".

Greetings!!

Good evening dreamers 👋 Weekend is over again and Monday is waving at us. But before leaving this day, we should be thankful because we still given a chance to witnessed our beauty in this world haha. I hope that the coming week will be good at us. Anyways, I really don't know why I wrote this kind of article tonight, maybe I'm just out of topic to discussed hahaha. Be safe always and have a good night sleep later.

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