Hi Love!! Can I still call you love even I know that you never love me back? Even I know that you still love someone else. It's been two years right? Or maybe three. I actually don't know the exact date when it's all happened. The one that still stuck on my mind is the pain that you give me to me. You said that I should move on but how can I if I still love you? How can I if I still holding the word " second chance"? Can we start over again? I pity myself to asked that thing to you because I know that I'm the one who took the courage to break the relationship that we had before. Should I blame myself for that? I love you , I really do but I can't afford to become fool once again.
Whenever we are together, you always tell something about your ex. Everything that you give to me is actually your ex-girlfriend's favorite. Even the food that we eat, you said that it's your favorite restaurant before. When you are sleeping, you said her name repeatedly. I can feel that you saw me as her.
I make myself blind for that because I love you. There is also the time that you said to your friends that I'm only your PTG and you're still in love with your ex. At first ,I don't get it what's PTG mean until someone said to me that it's "Past Time Girl". So, am I only the past time girl for you? You really don't know how much pain I need to endure just to be with you. I can't blame you for that because I know from the start that this relationship is only a dare. I'm so stupid to agree to that dare but what can I do, I got a love at first sight to you. I thought that you can also learn to love me back.
But you gave me not love but suffering. Suffering that I need to overcome alone. I really wanted to be your crying shoulder but I can't believe that I will the one who will cry at the end. I want to be your supporter but I never thought that I'm the one who needs someone's support. I want to be your special girl but it seems that I'm only the ordinary one for you. But because I love you , I can endure all of that. I promise that I'll never leave you whatever happens.
Seems like the time wants to play with us. Your ex asked you for a second chance. You're so selfish that time because you never considered my feelings instead you kiss her in front of me while saying that you want to be with her again. Honestly, I want to slap you. I want to hurt you. I want to say bad things to you. But.. you already said before that I'm only your PTG. So instead of hurting you , I just run away. I never expect that you will chase me. You hold my hands and hug me back. I thought I was the one you chose but it will never happened. You hug me to say " Thank you for being my rebound and". I don't have the courage to finished what are you trying to say, I just said to you that it's ok and starting that day you are definitely free to comeback to your ex. I think it's the best way to cover up the pain that I feel. So, yes I took the courage to say goodbye to you first even I don't want to. I want to hold your hands for the last time but you insist to go back to the girl who you actually love. Seeing you leave me like this makes me feel awful even more.
It's been 2 years but it's still refreshing to my heart. I saw your post yesterday. You already marry the girl that you wanted to be your wife. Perfect choice of date huh? Yesterday was supposed to be our 3rd anniversary if I'm not mistaken but I know that you didn't remember that because you never love me even once. I'm glad that you are happy with her. I hope that when I see you again, I able to face you with the sincerest smile. Thank you for giving me the precious gift that I've never expected. Rest assured that I will take care and love this little princess even without you. For the last time, I want to say "I love you and good bye".
Hello dreamers 👋👋 Basically , it's not my own love story because I don't have one hahaha. It just suddenly pop up to my mind so I immediately write it here before it disappear on my mind lol. Hope that you are happy today. Don't forget to rest okay?
bakit ramdam ko yung sakit?!?? :(