At the health center

It's Clea's immunization day so we woke up early even though we don't want to. Who's determined to rise from bed when the weather is cold and gloomy? If not because of immunization schedule, I wouldn't got up from bed. I also felt scared for Clea because I know she'll cry again and she might have a fever afterwards just like her first injections on both of her legs but then I had no choice but to let her undergo through it for her to be healthy. After all, all babies will do the same.

We woke up at 6 AM because Clea is already awake and she keeps on waking us up too with her morning mumbles. I don't understand what she actually said but I am sure she wants us to wake up and carry her. I fed her first then bathe her quickly since it's still cold due to minimal rain. I was surprised because she cried at first unlike the usual when she's just enjoying her bath. I just continued anyway because she stopped crying. I tried to make everything quick as possible so that we won't be late just like the previous immunization when Clea was the last baby that the midwife and nurses waited. I dress her up and gave her vitamins. I let her dad hold her first so I can take a bath. I must look presentable because some Mariteses will be there are some Barangay Health Workers who are fond of judging others like as if they are perfect. I don't want them to say something bad at me especially to my daughter so I make sure we both look presentable. I just wore shorts and a T-shirt just like the usual clothes they saw me wearing. When I was done preparing everything, I let my sister go to the health center and see if it's already open and glad that it is so we won't have to wait longer.

We went there at exactly 8:30. I wasn't able to bring my phone so I don't have much photos to show. It was only my sister who brought hers because my anxiety gave me nervousness again. I don't want to see Clea get hurt for the pain I feel will be double. I don't want to panic there too so I let my grandma come with us so she'll be the one to hold Clea during the immunization.

When we get there, there are some moms together with their babies. There were also some pregnant moms. Some health workers are there too and all of them are women, women I hate because I know they talk behind my back when I was still pregnant. I also knew that they don't like me for I don't talk to them and to other people around here where I live. I only talk to some few friends. I am also certain that they already doubted my ability to provide to my family because I already have mine. But I don't care about them anyway. They are just some of the many people who are not happy with their lives so they talk about others. I was also right that some Mariteses will be there because I saw two of them I know. If only I don't have manners, then I would surely be approaching them why they looked at in a judgemental way - from head to foot. I still respect them anyway not because they are worthy of my respect but because I know how to respect.

The midwife called Clea's name so we immediately went inside the center. The nurse gave vitamin drops to Clea and do the injection afterwards. Clea cried but not that intense just like the other babies. She stopped crying right after the injection. It gave me relief that she seemed not hurt and she does not have a fever at this moment. I am checking her temperature every hour and did not go beyond 37°C. I just hope she won't have a fever so we can go travel again and have this article posted. (I wrote this this afternoon and now Clea has a fever already).

Nothing special happened to me, to us today. Just the usual. I really wanted to move to another place, somewhere near to my workplace before because the center owner already messaged me asking when will I go back to work as an online teacher. I really wanted to go back but we need to save more money so we can pay an advance to the boarding house we plan to stay with. We also need to have extra money for our consumption and for Clea's needs. For now, I will be more hustling hard so we can finally move. There's no issue anyway. We just wanted to live separately from our parents so we can experience the life of being a mother and father without depending on our parents.

Clea is sleeping so I got time to write this. Gotta go again friends. I hope you are all doing fine. Keep hustling hard!

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