When we are young we have the most positive thought, that humans can ever have. We can see tomorrow with pure happiness and joy, and when something bad happens, we just cry in a short time and after that, act like there's nothing that happens and hope for the best again. We did not see how cruel life is, we just think about what we can do later after we go to school, what we can do after we eat, or after we do our homework. Being a child is one of the best times in our life, but when we are at that moment we think everything is boring like nothing new will happen later in the day or tomorrow.
As a Child
As a child we spend our time playing, this is the time before we start school. When I was a child I spend my time playing with my grandfather. We live in a gated area where all our neighbor is our relative. As the years go by, even when I was not a child yet, they start moving out of the area and buying new places to start their family. So when I am a child all the houses around our house are abandoned, and I have no one to play with, that is why I am spending a lot of my time with my grandfather. Even I am alone when I was young I am full of hope and joy, I have a wide imagination to fill in all the free time alone in our house.
Before we go to school we are thought by our parents the basic knowledge in order to survive or do well in school. By this time I have no choice but to obey and my parents happy. By the time we go to school, we will acquire simple knowledge about life, about how different our lives can be with the other kids. Here I can that life is just unfair. I study elementary in a public school and I can see many kids that are less fortunate. I can see those intelligent students struggling to find a way to buy their notebooks. It is sad but it is just the way it is. That is the first lesson I have learned in the study hall.
Life is so unfair, why do others need to suffer while others have so much in their pockets. And as I grow up, day by day I can still observe this king of the way in life. It is just normalized by many people and as time pass I did not notice that I normalized it myself.
A Little old
here I can see and observe well. I can see that many things and events in life are just happening again and again almost every day. I can still see that we are suffering from finding the next food to eat in the next meal, I can still that my parent are not on good terms and I am affected by it. I still see that my father is beating me for every simple mistake that I do.
At this time of my life, I began to lose hope. I began to see the pattern that nothing changes even I change myself. I can still see that many children are suffering in life but it is not their fault.
As I grow old I kind of accept this kind of way that people live their life. The more you observe and think for others the more life will be hard. The more you think and act about the injustice here, the more you become exhausted because whatever act you do nothing will change.
But life is fun, we always look forward to tomorrow and hope everything will change when we close our eyes in the evening and open it in the morning, we always hope that everything will magically change and everything will be alright. I do this all the time when I was young, when all the problems and stress come crushing to me at once, I will just try to sleep it out and hope that everything will change tomorrow. But the obvious result will be nothing will change.
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