The Most Dangerous Feeling

September 30, 2021

As we are growing up developing and discovering many abilities and feelings that we don`t know we have, we kind of enjoy it and we seek more of it. Like other humans behave when they are young, we become curious and thrilled to go on adventures that will further enhance and understand the feeling we are feeling, adventures that will bring us more knowledge and experience to know more about ourselves. Journeys enable us to further understand what our brain is capable of. In this journey, if we are not ready and strong enough, we can have a hard time advancing and there is a possibility to be stuck in an unexpected place.

It is good and bad at the same time for our mental and physical health. As we experiment in our life about what is felt, especially what love is, we tend to fail many times and it can affect more than we know. When we are young we become careless when we feel something new, it is normal because we are young at that time and we acquire our knowledge about everything through cartoons.

Can you remember the time that you first fell in love?

As young we are, there is little knowledge in our brain and we rely on it every day. That is why when there is new information, we tend to be excited and can`t stop thinking about it. This always happens the first time we feel love, we feel so different and happy and we feel so light and complete.

Do you remember when you first saw your crush when you are young, can you still remember the scent of his or her clone when he or she passes through you, can you still remember the color of his hair, the color of his or her eyes and do you still remember how he/she walks.

And when he/she walks towards you, you become frozen and it feels like the whole world stops. Does it feel like the time slows when you make eye contact?

Can you still remember the times that you let slip when you have the chance to talk to her? Can you still remember the nights that you prayed for a long day so you can be with her longer? Can you still remember the time when you first talk and walk together? and did you remember her smile when you ask her if you can carry her bag so she can walk easily on the way home?

Now it sounds funny and nonsense, but when we are at that time it feels so magical. it feels like we are in a movie or a fairy tale. When you finally have a chance to talk with her you don`t want the day to end.

And we all know where it is going to end...

We all feel it and we kind of embarrassed about it, but this is extremely normal and fun to look back. This is one of the moments that affect our minds when we are young, the memories that give us more knowledge and understanding about how our feelings work.

In this part of our life, we are careless and will just go with the flow where ever it takes us, and it is kind of scary when we think about it now, but in that time it is just normal. We are careless because we feel that we have a lot of time left in the world, there are nothing to do but to go to school and please your parent, we are careless because we always feel free and safe.

Can you remember the time when you are first rejected?

The first teardrop because of a broken heart? the first curse you said when she said the words that tear your heart? can you remember the person that you first told that you are "broken-hearted"? can you remember how many days it takes for you to stop crying and think about eating? or you are a stress eater and eat a lot since the breakup?

do you remember the lasting you said to her? do you still remember what triggers the break-up? Do you remember the song you listened?

Do you remember this thing that happens? there are 2 kinds of people, those who remember the goods time and those people that remember all the bad things that happen to them. Sometimes when we look back in the memories, we can still feel the pain, and sometimes we lough it out, but inside it still hurts.

We try many things so we can learn more about our self and sometimes we lose control. When this happens, we tend to like to stay in that place where we feel and alone and secure. Especially in breakups, we feel like we are nothing, we feel that they left us because we are a failure, and no one deserves us. On the first day, it is okay to feel like that, but as the day goes by and the more we think about it, the more realize that sometimes it is not our fault to sometimes it is a blessing in disguise.

With those kinds of experience we obtained, it makes us a different person, a wiser one. We feel like a new human that is ready for everything, we know what to do and how to act when that certain circumstance arrived again.

Love is one of the more mysterious things in the world, we are caught defenseless with it and we can do nothing about it but embrace it. Sometimes it destroys us but most of the time it builds us.

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