Date: 11th July, 2022
Monday

When my day starts, I detect myself to do something new. But when the days comes to an end, I find out that I have not done everything properly. Always some options remain unsolved. I promise to complete that the following day. Sometimes I do but sometimes I don’t. That's my circle of life. I feel that I need to improvise myself. I have the gut feelings but in the end I remain as a lazy one. This laziness is killing me from inside. I know this is bad but somehow I fall for it. Maybe I'm not doing great or maybe I'm frustrated enough with my life. It’s killing me from inside. I'm finding a way but failing at present.

This is not who I am. I always want to be the next big thing and work according to it. But whenever I want to rise, something inappropriate happens. It makes me remain lazy because my brain is already traumatized with the ongoing issues. It is not that easy to walk along with the problems and remain cool. No dear, I am not that person. I'm habituated with my regular days and not even interested with other things around me. But when my recognized zone appears totally unrecognizable point, I feel the heat. I feel that I'm not supposed to be there.

When my land begins to shake and my visionary dreams shatter, I feel that I am not doing well and there is something wrong in my past decisions. I check and rethink about it. It takes some long times to figure out what is wrong in the track I'm going. I find out some of my faults which I re-correct but sometimes I am not in the good mood as I figure out some issues which is totally created by someone else. What I do then is simple. I remain calm and wait for the issues to come to an ending point.

I am a man who hates to remain lazy. I am a person who loves to work hard and help others. I am the mortal being who knows what best for business and people. Then why I remain lazy? When things get out of control and I have nothing to do with it. I remain calm and wait for the better days comparing the current situation. That makes me lazy. I remain nervous. I remain calm in nature. Now I don’t know whether it’s good or bad but for now, this is it.

I need to put myself in a hard task. I need to improvise myself again. Returning to the phase where I belong will be the best thing for me. I hate laziness because it’s killing me from inside. I know my potentials but it is not working or maybe it’s me who is not allowing it. This phase of life is so hard to concentrate properly which is must for me. I need to push myself to the end of it. Somehow I am lazy enough but this is the time to rise. I need to put the level up. Because that's where I belong.

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