Walking alone

Good evening everyone!

Remember my article A Huge Birthday Party Celebration? I'm happy right? But why did I received sadness as a consequence?

Sometimes I used to believe what other people say " Your happiness is also your Sadness " WHY? Am I destined to become happy but later on after a long day end I will end crying? And then the next morning happiness will appear and then later on that day, here goes sadness again? Do I always have to suffer? from sadness, pain, crying and everything?

Here it goes

Later on that day, me and my partner got an issue. It's just a little bit of misunderstanding, then we end up fighting and separate ways. I didn't expect that. Anyways, I was walking alone around 10 in the evening, my stomach if full, because I ate a lot from the party.

While walking, I felt so nervous, my heart beat went so fast, I don't know why, but I just feel something might happen. I have a phobia when it comes to sounds of the car, or motorcycle or even a presence of person that is behind my back. So while walking, I managed to watch from my back, if I saw a car I will hide. I don't know, but the feeling I have last night is feeling so down. I panic and run.

Until I saw a patrol car, I became more alarm and run. It was then I noticed I end up in a very dark place, I face a very big house, and I remember some of my friends share about this place history, It was scary. I found a way, one way down to sea side, I take a step, and then step back, realizing that we have there a cemetery.

Now should I continue walking in that one way? Should I walk in a long station of the death's place? Or should I continue walking at the road, what If someone will harm me, or what if the patrol car will show again?

I chose to continue my walking at the road. I nearly went to cry because of my nervous and may phobia attack, but I still manage to walk alone in a dark long road.

Lucky! I went home safe, but nervous. One reason why I never had a good sleep last night.

Thanks to God for guiding me. It's hard to walk alone to be honest, no one will help you if you are scared, no one will understand you nor comfort you. The experience I have last night is different, I feel like someone is following me and that is planning to attack me so I run to get home as soon as possible.

Have you experience the same?

How was my experience? Hayst, I posted this because I just can't forget what happened to me last night.

I hope you guys will never had this kind of situation, it's hard to control when your anxiety, phobia, nervous will attack.

Thank you guys for reading! Have a great day 😊