Our old days

Time goes by smoothly. Its been a month since I and meb split up. And the thing I have right now was the thing I never had when I was with meb. I never had my male friends, I never had the chance to wear what exactly I love to wear, I never had the chance to go somewhere with my friends, if ever we both should go. I admit I sometimes get mad when meb work on without me, that hurts me, but as the years goes by, and my feelings were into hurtful words or what ever meb done that made me cry.

Our relationship were toxic, meb was supposed to be the one to cuddle me or say sorry, however I did her part. I ask for forgiveness even though not my mistake, I chat first, I call her first even though she never gave me an answer, just hang up and turn off her phone. She's so bothered I guess, that's why one time, she wants to end our relationship because of my attitude, yeah I'm that type of girlfriend, I prefer more on calls, is that bad? Is that how hard my attitude was for her to break up with me? Or am I that hard to handle?

I can still recall the moment I ask for forgiveness and then beg meb to stay, I kneel down just for her to stay, but then she gave me nothing, she left me with my flowing tears. It was a bad day for but still, I send her a message, I always ask for forgiveness and I feel so sad whenever I am not forgiven. Now am I bad?

Meb on the other side can do what she wants, hang out with her friends, cousins, and classic, she told me lies, I know it was, but I always say thats fine, I always have the information about the things she do and done.

I can still recall when one of our trip, meb drop me and left me without second thought of getting me back. That was horrible, I cried and ask one of my make friend to take me home, gladly he saved me.

Even though at that worst attitude of meb, I still handle her. She asked for forgiveness and she was forgiven.

All of my tears, pain, heartbreak that meb did was a great lesson. I did my part as her girlfriend, i loved her more than myself, and now I realize I was wrong. I was wrong upon begging someone to stay and love me. I feel sorry to the girl I was before, never again will I beg someone to stay and love me. Never again will give all my love to someone who doesn't love me back just the way I did. Never will I again cry for nonsense reason, never again will I hope for fake promises and never again will I give unlimited chance to those who don't deserve it.

I will never be that girl anymore.

But still thanks God for taking away toxic people in my life. Now I am happy, I am so glad I made new circle of friends, I met mew people and places, I met my work and met my own worth.

I never regret for what I did, It was just my way of showing love, the point is that too much love could be a mistake and hurt myself in the end. I never regret I met meb, she is now part of my memories, and she will always have a place on my heart. I don't blame her for our break up, it was God's plan and I know God did this for a reason. People come and left, meb left me but biboy came.

I forgive a lot but I never forget what is said and done.

Now I am smiling, I am no longer sad everyday, I sleep with my happy face, I woke up with a curve on my lips. Nonetheless, I never ask for this relationship but it came. Now I am thankful and I always bring the lesson I had on my past relationship.

That will be all guys, thanks for stopping by, I hope you like my short blog. For no reason I made this as I saw meb happy with her new girlfriend.

How are tou fellas? Have a great evening everyone, how was your day? I hope you guys are having fun with your family, friend, love ones.

Have a great day!

SALAMAT ❤️