Hi this is Lovely again. Just these days I am experiencing a severe headache and I dunno why. I found myself very exposed to cellphone amg lights. It won't stop until I could have my rest. The next morning, the same thing happen again. I know tp myself that this is the result of my habits, Playing online games such as Mobile Legends, Call of Duty, offline games such as Candy Crush, Farm City, Plants vs. Zombie, Cooking Madness, Billiards and soon..
You know a 20 years old lady always think about death, a Lady was still hoping to grant her most special wish. Remember the article entitled I Wish I Had a Pa it was that my very precious wish. My very long possible thing to happen but still hoping...
When my Mom gave me birth, she never did her part. She left for the reason of work but then found another guy. It was so sad for me, I wish mom didn't get pregnant in her early age, if only I was her friend or family I will teach her, If only I could bring back time, but I cannot. I don't have powers, because if only I have? I would change my life. So from manila, She then sent me in package with the guy she knows he would bring here to where I live. Yes that man did, He then take me to my grandma's house and that is why I am here. The old woman I shared to you from the very beginning of my journey here. She took care of me, feed me, sent me to school. She was a great great mom and a father to me. The man who sent me? I respect him and thankful, why? Because he helped me, he has a pure father heart. Until now, when I saw him, I always give him my respect, I ask for his hand do this. Here in my town it is called Amin, in Tagalog Mano Po. I dunno but I am so much grateful for his help and I will be forever return his kindness..
One thing I really wanted and still hoping is to have a father. I don't have any information, contact with him. I don't even know either he's still alive or not, but one thing I can assure is if he come one day, then it will be my happiest day ever. A lot of issues concerned with who my father os, they introduce me a man who is not my father. How did I know? I searched him and send him a message. Yeah I did, he replied later on that day. He said, SORRY? I GUESS YOU FOUND THE WRONG PERSON. I also open a conversation to his brother.. I asked if the man they appoint my father share something to him. Yes he replied also.. I dunno if I will be happy but I just cry the whole day. Later he sent me a message.
They want DNA test.. How can I make it? I am still in my college don't even have money to provide my needs how much more to have the DNA? I replied OKAY SIR and then ignored the rest of his chat. The man I sent my first question, I also ignored him. I don't know I just felt so angry, feeling like I wanted a revenge. It was really a hard time for me knowing that he, never want me, and accept me as his daughter, and he, his brother wants a test to accept me as family. Well I guess, the person who supposed to be my father is a Nurse, and his brother is a Police. They are a financially stable.
The only thing I want to happen I want to be granted is that to have a father. A father who could communicate with me, ask me if I'm okay, I want ro feel the love of a father, he's hands and hugs. I went ro emotional whenever I saw a father with his child, going to beach, school, church, eating together, celebrate Christmas, New Year, and birthday's. Even though the hard words I received, the next month, I am still after him. I want him to finally accept me as a daughter.
Now there's this Lady, she asked me if ever my father will come to me, what will I do...
To be honest, first I will be more emotional, I will ask him why he and mom didn't make a their relationship last, why he left me behind, and so many why's. It will be the most painful and happiest day for me if ever that day will come. All I know is that if ever he will come for me, I will cry for happiness and for the pain i felt for a long time. Maybe I could have answers, maybe I could hear the story and maybe I could Understand.
Even now, I am in my 20's I am still after him. I am still hoping that he will soon come and accept me as his daughter.
I still wish that I can a father. I am still after his presence even of so many people says never gonna happen. But I am still hoping, there's no wrong with that I guess.
It is my wish and I still hope it will be granted. Though its possible but I still never lose hope that one day, i could feel the love of having a father.
I guess it's never too late for this to happen, but of ever i get old and none things has changed, I will still thankful fo him. I am still nothing without him.
To you; i hope one day when you realize, I am still here I am still your daughter and I will still accept you.
That will be all guys hehe. I hope you like it. Sorry if I am too emotional but you can't blame me.. I was just a hungry child, and I wanted to eat a love and support coming from a father.
SALAMAT!
I spend 12 hours a day at the computer. I understand you very well. We have become digital slaves. We are drifting towards the false paradise of the antichrist. We must return to the real world.