From strangers to strangers again

There are different cycles in the world. Each of those cycle has a specific beginning and end which contributes for a person to know where something came from and how it evolves to its current form. It's a necessity in order to easily understand the why's, and how's of the things in the world but right now, I would want to tackle a specific cycle which I know most of us can relate and that is the cycle of love.

Strangers

Basically strangers are two people who are both unknown to each other. We were strangers to each other not caring or minding each other's business. It's important to be vigilant to the people around you especially nowadays due to the pandemic. Strangers are those who are difficult to trust and be with in the beginning. It's as if you have an instinct not to easily trust someone and to make sure that you are protected from all harm and danger that a danger that a stranger can cause you but isn't also true that you can never know someone not until you allow that stranger to enter in your life?

Now here comes the next phase of the cycle.

Friends

I often wonder how can two people meet and form a bond which is unbreakable. It's not actually because they have similarities but it's more of being understood and taken cared of. Each of us longs to have a friend, confidant and someone who will make us feel that everything's okay and someone always got our back. Even I myself longs for a person like this. Someone who will be there for me during my ups and downs. Someone who will reassure me that I'm loved, I'm okay and I'm accepted.

You see from strangers to friends then here comes the next phase.

Lovers

Here comes the real deal. It started as strangers, then it evolved into friends and now lovers. The similarities and differences of each other has been easily accepted and each person has this erratic heartbeat whenever they see each other. The guy started courting the girl. He does everything he can just to make her say yes to be in a relationship with him.

After winning her heart, they did almost everything. Dating, either romantic or sudden dates. Giving of gifts such as roses, stuff toys, other personal items, preparing meals for each other and even going to a length which you never knew you can do. You made plans and achieved things together. You laughed and cried with each other. You have been each other's comfort zone and you even considered each other as your first and last.

You did more than just hugs and kisses. You are always in for cuddles and even to a point when none of you are talking but you feel at ease and safe in each other's arms. You are like a living diary of each other. You tell all your secrets, you make crazy antics and even pranks against each other. During your down moments you look for each other and even during your happy times you always want to share it with each other. You respect each other so much and when you thought that it's the start of forever it's actually the beginning of the end.

Your relationship became toxic due to your conflict of interests. He became possessive and you became paranoid. He's into his friends and there's this one girl you're always insecure about but he never stopped being friends with her. He forgot his boundary. He was possessive of you that whenever you meet a new person he gets mad for no reason saying that he's a guy and he knows exactly what a guy thinks. You were once a happy couple but you can't handle each other's toxicity anymore.

You asked just for a few days to cool off but those days turned to months until your relationship has ended in a snap.

You talked to each other and decided that your relationship won't work anymore and that you have been way too toxic for each other to bear. One last time you saw each other but there's no more love, only pain and regret. Instead of hurting each other more, you decided to let each other go. You now have different priorities.

When you parted ways you're both too heartbroken and you decided to vent it out differently. You gathered what came from each other and decided to light it with fire or to just throw it. While doing so, you were both crying and everything that reminds you of each makes you cry but you will never admit that it's your fault or that you can still fix it.

Until one day you saw each other again. Gone was the mesmerized eyes filled with love and longing to be in each other's arms. Your eyes are now void of emotions. It's as if you're back at the beginning. Only this time in someone else's arms.

From being strangers, to being friends then being lovers and back to being strangers again.

Strangers

Seeing each other after a long time made the both of you set free of the past or so you thought. There's still a lingering emotion in your heart. Seeing him happy with another girl and doing that things he used to do for you. Those eyes of him full of love just for you are now set to another person.

Your eyes met but you both decided not to acknowledge each other's presence. Walking past each other declaring that you have both moved on and now you're strangers with each other again.

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March 7, 202

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