Everything I do reminds me of you

Everything I do, reminds me of you

~ A poem by Love_16

I love you,

Forever and always.

I will see you in God's appointed time.

I miss you,

Now and all the time.

I will embrace you when we meet again.

I long for you,

Every now and then.

I will hold you in my arms and never let you go when I see you again.

I care for you,

As you are my dearest one.

I will keep you forever in my heart.

***

You told me that you will buy me a delicious cake on my birthday. But I don't need that cake as you are not with me.

You told me that you're giving me a permission to have a boyfriend. Not knowing that it was because you wanted someone to protect me.

You always tell me that you love me and I am your dearest daughter. You were strict with me because you wanted to protect me and I love you all the more for that.

***

Aren't I a bad daughter for not giving you 5,000 for your wristwatch? Not knowing that the reason for that is because you wanted to give it to my brothers.

Aren't I a bad daughter for not giving you what you want? Not knowing that it will be the last time that you'll ever ask something from me.

Aren't I a bad daughter for not loving and understanding you enough? Not knowing that you're suffering too much.

***

Everyday I will cry because I miss you.

Everyday I will start my day knowing that I can't see you anymore.

Everyday I will look at your favorite spot and not see you there.

Everyday I long to hear your voice but I cannot hear it anymore.

Everyday I just simply miss you.

***

No words are enough to describe this unbearable pain. It's just too much to bear and nothing can ease it. No matter what I eat, how many times I cry, or how long I sleep I continuously think of you. I miss you. I'm not going to ask you to come back to us.

I don't what to be selfish. I am happy because you are happy at the same time I am sad because there are so many things that I am unable to do for you.

You haven't even walked me down the aisle nor see the townhouse that I'll buy for you. You haven't even seen your future grandchildren with me.

But it's okay because you're now an angel. Who sees me and the whole family daily. You are now completely healed, safe and sound, healthy and you have an eternal life in the arms of the Almighty God. I love you pa. See you in heaven in God's appointed time.

Love_16

October 15, 2021

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