Why I don't like "Big Guys"

Before I start, let me ask you first, Do you have a physical standard for men or women? I mean for someone you are eying to be in a relationship? Well I guess, most of us, do have. I remember when I was still in high school, slum books were very common. Hahaha, that was one of our ways of knowing our crush's whereabouts as there was no social media that time. Just those Nokia keypad phones! As for girls ,when asked for their ideal man, the usual answer was " tall, dark and handsome". Well it was them not me.

Setting my standard.

Though I was a boyish way back in my high school days, of course I have crushes and I know to admire men. What physical appearance of a man that I like nor attracts me? Opposite of what the common girls like. Hahaha, I like men with white complexion, lean and chinky eyes and with the hair of Jerry Yan at F4. Remember JM in my previous article? He got this physics except with chinky eyes.
I was never attracted with to tall or big guys. With those abs and muscles. Hahaha, but of course I admire them. Who wouldn't? like maybe Michele Morrone? "Are you lost baby girl"?

I only admire them but to be in a relationship with a guy with that physics? It's a big NO for me.

The reason why I don't like " Big guy".

Maybe you were wondering why or curious. I guess that thinking of mine started when I was still a kid. I was only five years old at that time and my Father just got home. My mother was so mad at him and started to rant. Who wouldn't be mad? He spent all the earnings from the Ferns he sold drinking together with his friends. What he has is only stale fish! My sisters and I were just sitting in the corner and started crying. From nagging they ended up in a heated argument, even cursing each other. My Mom rant like a machine gun, my Father had no longer a chance to explain himself.

Maybe, it was because of the alcohol and he was fed, he SLAPPED my Mom. We were all shocked! We were all crying while shouting " nanay" ( what we called our mom). He slapped my Mom so hard that she even lost consciousness! My Father panicked too, he carried Mom to bed and nursed her till she woke up.

Though that was the first and last time, I saw my Father hit my Mom, it somehow imprinted on my young mind.

Another thing that made me completely lose my interest with big guys, happened when I was in high school.

As I had mentioned in my previous post, I am the one in charge of heavy household chores at home as my sisters easily get sick. There was a time, my brother got mad at me because I didn't wash his clothes. He can't blame me. I was the only one doing the laundry and we have a big family. Not to mention we are using a deep well , can you imagine how tiring it is? While he is just busy enjoying with his friends.
At first it was just a normal argument not until my Brother got mad to the point he slapped me. With all his force! I was just a skinny teenager back then and I only stand five feet. My brother was 5'8 plus he got that typical body of the guy who grew up in the countryside. He was indeed strong!

To avenge, I threw his newly washed islander slippers outside and it was raining! That time islander slippers were in trend.

The next day, I went to school with bruised lips and black eye.

Closing thoughts.

Maybe you're gonna ask me what the connection was? Due to what I had experienced, I had that thought that women's strength was nothing compared to men, physically. Thus, it would be hard for me to defend myself if ever I was gonna marry a big guy. What if we had a misunderstanding and he would hit me too? I might end up losing my consciousness like my Mom or maybe I will be beaten black in blue.

So to prevent these things from happening, I set physical standards for the guys I used to date. If ever I have a suitor, I am mentally assessing if my strength was enough to fight with him just in case. Do you find me weird?

How about you? What was your standard with men/women physically?

Have a great day and thanks for dropping by.

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