Sometimes you don't need motivation you need a change of plan. Not everything will work out fine using a particular method, you may need to change the pattern, focus and target, be open to change.
Fishing in a rain without fish consistently can never bring fish rather it will waste your time, you either change your river or you change your occupation, but when you don't realize that and remain in the same spot, hoping that things will get better, you wait forever without good result.
If only we can realize that everything is not about working hard but working smart, maybe we can achieve a lot more, a job that stresses you, pays you less doesn't need hard work, you need a change to a better one but we are sometimes too scared. fear of uncertainty has made a lot of people miss out on new opportunities, the devil you know is not always better than the angel you don't know, all you need is to a trial to know which is better.
It's not about how far but how well, don't be too adamant not to know when you need a new adventure, a change. There are many ways to achieve your goals don't stick to one, when you notice you have worked so hard and every effort seems abortive then try another way, no one cares about how hard you work, what everyone will celebrate is your result, keep trying different methods if you must, as long as you achieve a positive result.
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