The inconsistecy needs to end; I will begin again Being home once more is really fun but a little bit of stress because I had to put things in place in my apartment; I mentioned yesterday that I had to go see younger sister in her home with surrogate parents while I went back to my personal apartment afterwards. Haven't been here in a long time hence had to do some cleaning up and arrangements which was really stressful, ended up sleeping really late as I had to also meet up…
October was torture; but I'm grateful October came and passed by much faster than expected; was full of so many struggles which I've got no idea where to begin from but I'm keeping my hope high with expectations that November will be better. I had a lot of things in mind to achieve in the month of October but couldn't do them all; one of such achievements is my BCH earnings- though rusty went to sleep at some point, yet I have no idea what happened as my october earnings…
Had fun today; left my shell for the first time in my life Today was fun, though not my kind of fun but fun is fun anyway provided I enjoyed myself in a really special way. As previously mentioned somewhere in my previous articles; I'm an extreme introvert, an indoor person lacking necessarily fun and always keeping myself busy with work and more work; I mostly use work ad am excuse to not go out mostly because I've gotten used to the indoors from childhood, hence being out…
What if the usernames were a paradox Having a really active and weird imagination can be fun especially when you're willing to make it known; a "what if"- what if the usernames were 'this and that" and not "this and that" as known on the platform; what if they were secretly Batman and hiding behind the shadows as a special way of having fun. It's all for fun and none of the below should be taken seriously; what if the usernames were a paradox.. **What if** the @FarmGirl…
Goodbye Axie infinity; it shall not be the death of me! Axie infinity is an NFT based online game inspired by the popular pokemon game; which requires you to breed, train and battle using three pets known as Axies. Purchasing these Axies requires an initial investment of over $1000 dollars, unfortunately not everyone can afford this huge amount of money hence the introduction of a guild where those that can't afford this amount of money are sponsored by those that can…
To the doctor; I will go Yesterday was one hell of a busy day for me; busy with work throughout the day, staring at that blue screen all day long with and sometimes without my glasses; those crypto charts were all over the place and that's all I see whenever I close my eyes; more like a tiny obsession. I don't wanna talk about mental stress or it'd look like I've got zero resistance to stress; truth is ... my brain works too much, more than it should and I'm always pushing…
Lots of rest and water; Doctor's solution versus mine I'm writing this in lieu of my initial article "to the doctor; I will go"; where I mentioned I was gonna go the doctor for check up due to some symptoms I was exhibiting; fever, cold tiredness and a head breaking headache (it's not covid-19, and if it were, you wouldn't be infected by simply reading this article haha..). Had to ignore the mountaneous work before me in a bid to get checked in the hospital, did the dress up…
I didn't slap you; I high-fived your face My cousin can be such a disturbance; constantly pulling my ears whenever I'm laying on the sofa, according to him my ears are fluffy and feels like fresh meat. He sometimes presses presses my biceps and says they're soft like meat and looks edible, my hair suffers the same fate constantly claiming they're super soft and sellable for money in the meat market place. Grrrr... he ca be so annoying that I sometimes feel like pushing him…
I got hospitalized eventually; those needles had to pierce my skin I'm writing late today because I got discharged from the hospital this morning and simply had to relax if I intend to not die. This is me writing about my struggles with malaria and all things not too good for me.... it turned out that I eventually got hospitalized; took a walk to the hospital myself out of necessity since I appreciate my life so much and I do not intend to lose it as quickly as I got it..I…
Couldn't interact with anyone since yesterday because I've been in the hospital; just got back this morning and it turns out I need as much rest as possible of I intend to not die... I'd be available every once in a while; kindly bear with me. Thanks.
It would seem that I'm not totally fine; went to the hospital to take a final dose of injection and things totally went weird from there; my vision became blurred and everything suddenly went blank. I had to pass another night here. I guess my body isn't strong enough yet. I hope I have strength to return home this morning as I don't wamma stay here anymore. .... I'm tired of it all.
Returned to the hospital last night; it was a total blackout I thought I was completely okay yesterday but it turned out that I still needed more rest; I mentioned being discharged from the hospital yesterday morning after which I went home to relax with the intention of going back by evening for a final dose of injection. I seemed fine; in the history of doings, I've always done things myself hence went to the hospital alone as usual it was a really long journey from where…
I'm still not fine and I can't take it anymore It was a very rough and restless night; I hardly slept as I simply rolled on the bed from one spot to another due to the fact that I was constantly losing my mind and my hands were constantly shaky throughout the night. It was a really rough one and I can hardly tell if I actually had a good sleep or not; though I had dreams somewhere along the way but they were very rough ones, the kind of dreams you have when you're sick,…
Health is getting better; still fluctuating but better The past few days has been the weirdest; been struggling with mental stress for weeks and within the twinkle of an eye my health deteriorated and went down the drain faster than I could imagine. It would seem that I've pushed my body beyond its limit and it has begun to fight back; there's only one solution and this is something called "rest" if I intend to not die..... I have always known the solution to stress is rest…
The fragile construct of life and death! I woke up as healthy as a horse today; though I've got no idea how horses wake up but it sure feels good to be alive. I slept better than the previous days and feel much better than the past few days, my brain waves seem stable, I'm able to think straight once again, memory is stabilizing and all previous conversations which were initially forgotten are beginning to make sense. I like the way I'm feeling at the moment; the feeling of…
Sleep when you can; or be a smartphone zombie The night has come when every man must retire to his place of rest; don't we all need sleep... we wouldn't survive a week without it as it's our body's recharge mechanism; a recharge mechanism which I have been defying and cheating for days and weeks and months thus resulting in my recurring hypertension. They say you can't cheat nature but I've pushed myself to a point where nature has begun to hate me thus gathering itself in…
Writing about not knowing what to write; addicted to read.cash not drugs I feel so tired this morning that all I wanna do is sleep all day without holding myself back, at the same time I can't let a day pass without writing on this platform hence I'm filled with the finest form of indecision. My body needs that sleep badly, my hands also need to write the usual "little sense making" articles of mine hence making it tough to make a decision... case solved; I forced myself out…
My little obsession with "not drugs" My eyes have become really heavy as sleep is pulling me towards dreamland but I can't stop staring at those crypto charts; all I see is red, green, red and green; lines which I mostly do not understand but pretend to understand in a bid to make some profit off trading while simultaneously reducing risk to the minimal. Those charts are always in my head and all I see in my dream is the red and green candle stick; at this point it's…
I could ne addicted to drugs but I choose to be addicted to BCH and writing on read.cash; the most healthiest obsession ever. .. check it out here.. https://read.cash/@Kristofferquincy/my-little-obsession-with-not-drugs-6b07d4b8
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Taken for granted; not anymore (sudden realisation) My life has been going without direction for some time; I feel lost, empty, feel like I've not been good enough and not been doing the right thing, and this is the bitter truth. I've been trying to understand my purpose for quite some time but I can't seem to grasp it; thinking about it each time makes it even tougher and I've got no idea where to begin or what to do... I sometimes feel like I'm not doing enough or not…
An open diary of self investment and improvement or whatchamacallit The past few days have been really exciting for me; left the hospital on Monday morning which obviously wasn't fun, stayed on bed all day like a log of wood and bla bla till Tuesday all thanks to the medications plus I was still recovering from malaria. The exciting part is I forced myself out of bed on Tuesday afternoon as I had plans of going to my cousins' place in another part of Lagos, it was a tough…
Grateful for a day like this; Sunday here I come Today is a sunday; the day of the lord, the day we gather in a very special place called "church" in a bid to reference him, listen to his word and commit all things unto his hands. It's a really wonderful opportunity to be alive and healthy to experience a new day and I'm grateful for this opportunity, I'm especially happy because I'd get to go to once again; last week was a mess, was in the hospital from Saturday till Sunday…
A decision out of conviction for the manifestation of a greater purpose I'm glad I went to church today (my church) as things happened and it would have been bad but I'm glad my going wasn't in vain. It turned out that God had greater plans and he intended to use me for his Glory; at the end of the service I was really glad I went because things would have been different if I had not gone. The urge to go to my church today was in my heart, had been in my heart since days…
The most hated day of the week; no one is indispensable It's another week, another day of waking early doing the needful and prepping for the stressful week that awaits, mondays are synonymous with stress and not wanting to wake up early. Who wouldn't like to stay on bed much longer in a bid to have that extra rest which the body has gotten used to during the weekend; unfortunately Mondays do not allow such luxuries hence we have to get out of bed super early so we could…
From Night of visitation to irregular heartbeats It's a Tuesday morning; just woke up few minutes ago- 10.41 am at the time of writing but it looks like I haven't slept at all, though I have but during the duration was really insignificant thus leading to irregular heart beats and my hands being a little shakier. You're probably wondering why I didn't have enough at night, we'd get into that shortly; Yesterday was a really busy day for me, I was caught up with work…
Depression; the comeback I haven't been depressed in a very long time unfortunately I'm at it again; my last recorded depression was early October, barely a month now and it's back again in full force. Depression so hard that I almost skipped writing today because I have all of a sudden lost interest in anything that used to seem like fun for me, my favourite songs have become boring, those crypto charts are beginning to look like some complex math which I do not want to…
Detrimental to my mental health; body contact I don't know if everyone else feels this way but I don't like being touched; I mostly feel uncomfortable and mostly excuse myself from a situation that would require me a person to come I'm contavt with me way more than a few seconds, except you're one of my two sisters or probably my best friend.. you may find this weird, In fact I sometimes search it on the internet as well- the keyword is "**why don't I like being touched**"…
Personal conflict with "Personality disorder" and "autism" I've been thinking a lot about my mental health lately; depression constantly pulls me down but I'm trying hard to be stronger, though it's not as easy as said but I'm optimistic I'd come out victorious. Depression is a serious challenge which shouldn't be taken for granted; I've been there, I am there, and it's a present continuous tense for me unless I find a solution to this happiness draining predicament. If in…
Depression- a compensation for routine change and excess of logic Being a control freak can be detrimental to your mental health; you'd have all events of the day basically planned out with a fixed time frame while sticking to this strictly without a change of plans and this goes on and on resulting in a cycle that cannot be altered. The detrimental part is in the case of an unplanned events or an emergency which requires change of plans and flexibility; it would become…
The inevitable universal constant of change (of plans); cause and effect Sudden change of plans occurs every single day and it turns out this is a part of life which is absolutely inevitable to as little as an atomic scale irrespective of how controlled our lifestyle and everyday activities are. These changes are as a result of choices; not necessarily our choices but our choices as well as that of those around us. Today is one of such days where my plan A and B doesn't work…
"Of indiscipline and poor time management" Yesterday was an absolutely crazy day full of plans disruption, unplanned changes and a hall of stress which resulted in headache; headache so much that my vision became blurry even with my glasses on...I got so tired that I couldn't think straight anymore as to finish the half way written article from previous day but had to settle for writing a new one because completing the previous one would have been another hall of stress…
Malaria has grabbed me again with full force; couldn't write today, not sure I'd write tomorrow as well..😩 I miss you all.... Going to the hospital tomorrow; wish me sound health.
Kristoffer-the comeback My health has been fluctuating for some time; one moment it's perfect and the next it's the opposite, the next major move is totally unpredictable but it all boils down to one thing; "**mental stress**" plus a little bit of malaria. Surprisingly; I treated myself of malaria about two weeks before now but it's quite unfortunate that it decided to hit again but this time with a much lower effect as I attacked it even faster with medications and advise…
Messed up body clock; "sleep" where art thou Health is getting better; atleast I feel much better than yesterday- no tiredness, knee and back pain plus the usual and almighty headache; it's all gone now but the master of all symptoms still exists- sleepless nights. Though malaria irrespective; yet it becomes worse when I'm struck by those blood sucking virus carrying insects who love my blood so much that they'd do anything to have it even if it includes removing me from…
Poor heat resistance; I can't take it anymore I've always had a poor resistance to heat for as long as I can remember, this poor resistance has recently gotten worse for reasons unknown. These days I can barely stand a strand of heat without hyperventilating and having difficulty in breathing, I tend to drink more quantity of water than I used to, I need to stay under the fan much longer than normal and I can't bare the rashes that comes through once exposed to excess of…
Christmas; Chrismantine is here Woke up this morning, took a walk outside and all I could smell was Christmas- oh how I love the smell of Christmas, ever wondered what Christmas smells like? It's all about perspective and your ability to imagine as there's no certain smell to look out for; just imagine hot wine and vanilla, cold fresh air, cinnamon, flora, Christmas Fried and jollof rice plus the usual fried chicken that comes along....the Christmas trees have their special…
Christmas spirit and Nostalgia I smell Christmas once more; the smell of the cool breeze and dry air indicative of harmattan's gradual arrival thus ushering in the much lived Christmas and it's Christmas spirit. We don't have snow here but harmattan is our special Christmas weather; i can imagine how cold the countryside gets extremely cold would be at the moment- that you'd have frostbite if you didn't gear up with gloves inclusive.... I so much envy the Filipinos; the…
Yo friends! I'd be glad if you could do me a little favour of welcoming my dear friend @malxolmX to this amazing platform; he's new here and just published his introductory article right here; https://read.cash/@MalcolmX/a-newbie-introduces-himself-47e99659
Day dreams and psychologist experience I don't want to talk about christmas anymore but my lips keep getting dried as time passes which is harmattan indicative hence a reminder that christmas still exists and is fast approaching. Today is the 29th and within the twinkle of an eye the 1st of December will come through and kaboom Christmas will pass as quickly as it came. I don't want to think about the fact that Christmas will pass as quickly and I'd have nothing to…
My Daddy long-leg and risk management techniques Oi read.cash familam! I sincerely hope you're all going doing fine today; pretty sure the answer is a "yes", I on the other hand am feeling not too good from sleeping late last night (this morning). Was on call with my friend; a very good friend of mine- my beauty, my love, my daddy long-legs- yeah you read it right, I call her daddy long-legs after the spider of the same name as she's a tall lady, not so tall but slightly…
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