What happened to me?

September 3

A laziness brought me all the way. Honestly, I was out of motivation this time. It's kinda annoying that I was at this point where reluctant of all things. I tried to feel at ease and be motivated but things messed up.

Actually, I am now in this state of not having excitement from the things that I used before of my happiness. There's no such thing excitement i've even felt this time. Is this called of maturity? Or is this called life of an adult? I even don't know what happen to me where in fact small things makes me happy. I was fail to feel it this time.

Haysss a life in the middle of Adulting. Perhaps I am just in the midst of curiosity or just adapting this kind of nature. It's really hard to adjust sometimes why I feel this way. Things really goes in a different way and that's what we need to adjust.

I feel guilty to God that I,myself complain about life. Complaining about the life given by God. I feel sorry with that but this emotions hook me to overthink. All I have to do is pray and pray! Lord help me please!

Maybe I am just feel bored that is why I am complaining.

Hays anyway! Let's end up that kind of thinking its me more negative.

Honestly, this Saturday is really boring. I tried to entertained myself and tried to open up here earlier in the morning so that the motivation will be with me to write but then the most I hated part brought me to cancel read.cash and open Facebook. Seeeee! Temptation really with me earlier. I actually think about that I need pennys for the important things that I need to pay but really it didn't effect.

I think a lot of reasons in order for me to get back in grinding. I even think that I need to buy this and that, I need to pay this and that, I need to save for the future use, I badly needed the money but unfortunately I was failed to motivate myself. I try and try to open this platform or even the hive and open the write articles and there you gooo. I might stop on a sudden and feeling empty. There's no words nor thoughts will came out in my mind. It is totally blanksheet! .

Of course when tempation hold you it will brought you again in facebook and tiktok. And when I felt tiredness of my eyes, I put myself on my bed and get out. I went in the backyard for some relaxation of my head. I feel sad in a sudden because I feel so useless again. I really don't know what happened to me earlier.

So now, I am trying to explain myself of what I have done lately why I am to demotivated having here. I feel sorry with that!

Unexplainable feelings Saturday🥺

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Saturday Mood!