Father Thread

Date: February 3, 2022

I lost track what date to day. Geez, time is moving way too fast noon kayo pa ngayon hindi na hahaha. What good of it, the classes will be end faster that we never notice upon. Speaking of it, I am so happy because this week or next week will be the end of our first semester and hello weeks break. Our class plans to have a small party to celebrate as well as our bonding with our professor who will sponsor the foods and maybe for more convenience to everyone it might be within the city because of the continued virus spreading. Hopefully it will not be drawing outing hahaha.

So many things I must do today because of my laziness and my heart is troubled. I couldn't do anything else aside from laying in bed and sleeping and the weather and cold breeze dwells on it. I don't know why when I am not okay I totally lose my appetite to move and make things which I don't like at all. It became more heavy as I saw a shared post on facebook, everything flashback like a photograph and it is so clear and vivid.

It was a thread post on facebook where many people do the shared post like what I am doing in my account. Tears, longing and sadness summoned my system as I tried to type everything I wanted to say from the very beginning until he lost his breath. Also, I feel proud and happy as I reminisce every single detail that happened to our family.

It makes sound biased and of course it will because he is my Papa hahaha. His character, attitude and the whole him is what I always compare to those fathers and partners who abandon their family for pleasure, those who let their family starve and those who choose to leave. I know, I don't the reason the behind on it but as what i saw in Papa he tried his best to become a father even he has a vices because he always thinks his responsibility as the head of the family. When we don't have something for meals he will do something by staying at the sea for hours to catch a. Yes, he is a fisherman, baker, farmer, construction worker, truck assistant and newspaper deliverer. He enters all of those just to make sure we have something to eat every meal time.

Papa stood their marriage vows until his last breath on earth. Papa and Mama's marriage is not perfect but their love and commitment binds them too tight. In marriage, they were processed by many trials especially when Mama is sick and no longer can walk and stand. Papa was there assisting her all times and Papa still needed to work from farmer and fisherman, he endured it all with complaint. And when Papa was sick with cancer Mama took Papa responsibility. They experienced a downfall but it didn't end in leaving each other because they chose their marriage despite everything.

My adornment to Papa becomes my standard in the relationship. I don't know if someone existed like that but I firmly believe it has and they are rare gems to find.

Papa never signs our school cards report even if we don't have a failed grade or line of 7. One time I was about to make him sign my report card, I was so confident that time that he would because at the back of head "he will because I am the youngest". Sadly, he never did and said "everything you learned applies into reality" but he makes a promise that I will never forget "Papa will be the one who will escort me to graduation" even in my debut and wedding but it will not happen because he is no longer here with us anymore.

Papa, by the grace of God months from now, you little JustMaryel will graduate like what we both dream.

Happy to see you in sponsors block❣️

Lead image and photos are screenshoot in Facebook.

JustMaryel sending you Love❣️