Life of an Introvert: Welcome to my Life

One of my childhood fantasies was to be able to travel the world and go wherever and whenever I pleased. However, as I get older, I'm starting to realize that I'd rather stay at home than go out with other people. I'd rather be alone and spend some time with myself if I ever wanted to go. I'm an introvert, I’ve always been this way, and I’m fine with it. I'm good at avoiding people, avoiding confrontation and conversations.  Being an introvert has its good and bad sides, and I guess so does being an extrovert

For the majority of my life, I believed that being an introvert was a negative trait. Being the quiet one in an outgoing and humorous family never seemed right. Why didn't I say something as soon as they did? What made me think I didn't want to be the center of attention? People around me appeared to be having a lot more fun. Why am I the quiet one? What is wrong with me?

Here are some characteristics that explain what it means to be an introverted person :

• Introverts prefer to be alone
  

I've always wanted to be alone, and when I'm alone, I find peace. It's exhausting to be around a lot of people all day. Going home to a house where there is always pandemonium due to the fact that we are a large family. When I was in boarding school and living in a boarding home, my friends and roommates would occasionally ask me if I was mad, unhappy, or doing anything I didn't like since I was unusually silent on occasion. I'm not angry, and I'm not sad either. All I require is some breathing room. Allowing myself ample quiet time to recharge has given me the energy I need to communicate effectively.

• Small chat irritates introverts.
  

Small conversation, on the other hand, is difficult to avoid. But I always made an effort to strike up a conversation with someone. I find small talk with strangers unsettling, especially when I'm alone in a public area and happen to see someone I recognize. On the other hand, I appreciate getting to know individuals on a more personal level and engaging in meaningful talks. I enjoy peeling back the layers of a person's exterior to learn more about them and their "story." I realize that I won't be able to connect with everyone I meet on this level, so small chat, as much as I despise it, is something I'll have to learn to do.

• Listening is a skill that introverts excel at over talking.
  

I'd rather listen to other people speak than speak to them, lol. I appreciate hearing their stories and listening to their difficulties, however I admit that I'm not very good at comforting, but I do enjoy listening to others speak and learning about who they are. I enjoy assisting others in any way I can, and I believe that being a listening ear is one of the most effective ways to do so. Even though I'm not excellent at soothing, I always try my hardest to be there for them whenever they need me, so they know someone is listening to them and that they aren't alone.

• Introverts are aware of their surroundings and are sensitive to it.
  

I never went out without someone before; whenever I wanted to buy something, such as in a mall, I always had my cousin with me. But for the time being, I'm attempting to get used to going alone, using the bus and tricycle alone. Going out irritates me because there are so many people, so many crying babies, and so much general nastiness. To my delicate little soul, social situations with too many people, noises, and a lack of organization are too overpowering and leave me feeling anxious and emotionally drained.

• Introverts are keen observers who pick up on minor nuances, allowing them to read people and situations quickly.
  

Despite my silence, I am aware of what is going on around me. People often assume that just because I don't have much to say means I'm clueless about what's going on. Lmao, I'm smarter than you think. I'm a natural observer, but I'm not a "chismosa" it's just that I'm good at observing someone secretly while minding my own business.

Clearly, being an introvert was a hassle.

However, over the past year, I’ve started to appreciate my introverted personality. 

Not leaving my room
Not leaving the house

My childhood punishments have become my adult hobbies lmao

Author's Note:

Oh, for how many years, now I finally publish a new article lol. I've been possessed by laziness these past few days.

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