Hey June, Don’t Make It Bad

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Hey June, don’t make it bad

Take a sad song

And make it better

Remember to let her into your heart

Then you can start to make it better

- Hey Jude (The Beatles)

Hey there, how’s it going my wholesome read cash buddies? How was your month of May so far? I know that last month was like a roller coaster ride that gave us mixed emotions followed by the roller coaster ride of the bloody market that keeps on going down and down. My month of May was not that good at the near end of the month. Actually, my month of May really is the worst so far. A lot of things are happening in my family and it’s like we’re being cursed by this month. Because, as I have noticed, every May we always encounter challenges and problems within our family. But I believe that those challenges just made our family’s bond even stronger.

My family bond got stronger, but the bond within me, myself, and I started to break into pieces. I’ve been struggling lately and the month of May was indeed full of heartaches. I shed a bucket of tears that month, and I hate it. I am so tired of it. I have been so depressed lately, but I have always made sure to pick myself up every time I break down because no one else will be aside from me. I struggled a lot. If only you knew, there are a lot of things that have been going through my mind and it feels like it’s driving me insane and I am so done with it. I am tired of silently crying every freaking night.

I've got a lot of things running through my mind along with problems that I don’t know where to start first. My insecurities even get worse and it feels like everything’s fcked up. That is why I was hoping that this new month of June would not be the same as the month of May because my eyes were already tired of crying and I think I ran out of tears from crying every freaking night. But sadly, I welcomed the first day of the new month of June with a teary eye. I can’t really help but cry again and again. No matter how much I hold it, it won’t just stop from falling on my cheeks like a waterfall.

It's just so funny how I keep cheering other people up while I'm the one breaking down and crying while typing some heart-warming and inspirational words. What’s even funnier is that the words that I needed to hear were the words that I told and shared with my friends to cheer them up and inspire and motivate them to pursue what they needed to pursue. Indeed, no one can make us feel better than ourselves. Well, I guess I have gotten used to it already that I am no longer longing for those words.

I am praying that there will be no more tears for me this month because I am already too tired for it. I hope that today will be the last day that I will let out the last tear in my eyes and the next thing that will be a tear of joy and no more disappointment coming from me. I hope that June won’t make it bad and, for sure, it will never be bad. I was so beaten up last month and I won’t let it happen again this month. Fingers crossed.

It's funny how we always say, "June, please be good to me," when a month doesn't do anything and we are the only ones in control of everything. LOL.

Happy New Month of June! read cash buddies! We’re already half way there since we’re already in the middle of the year and a few more sleeps "Ber Months" will pop up like it was yesterday. Time hasn’t gone so fast; we’re just getting older and older without noticing.

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