I have cynophobia and my son wants to have a dog
I am writing today's article to share with you how desperate I am and to ask for your opinions.
I have cynophobia. A fear of dogs. But that is not the usual fear. It is an overwhelming fear. When I see a dog near me, my heart starts beating fast and hard. In fact, I do not allow the dog to be close to me because when I see it in the distance, I change the direction of my movement. Sometimes I make whole circles around the neighborhood avoiding dogs until I reach the target points. My 100 meters is sometimes 1 kilometer when a dog is on my way. When I see a dog, I run away but I don't run. I walk fast because I know the dog will run after me if I run.
There is no explanation for this fear. The dog never bit me. I have never had a negative experience. But I'm just scared. I'm afraid of a possible touch. I don't like when they are playful because I don't want to play with them. I don't want that because I feel bad, my stomach hurts, I get chills, I'm sick and my heart will jump out of my chest.
There are a lot of dogs in my neighborhood. People often walk them without a leash. I understand that these are peaceful dogs that are not dangerous and just want to play. But their owners don't understand that I don't want to play and I feel like my walking space is limited. In today's time of great love for dogs, it is difficult to understand that someone can have cynophobia. I feel very strange because of this fear like I'm from another planet. But not to be confused, I have nothing against dogs, they are even beautiful to me but my fear is stronger than anything.
But is this phobia stronger even than doing something good for my son? Am I a bad mother because I can't fulfill my son's wish and buy him a dog? He desperately wants a dog. And I am desperate because of my phobia. We know how beneficial it is for children to have a pet. And of all the pets, dogs have the best effect on children.
My son is sad. All his friends have a dog. And I'm sad too because even though I know it would be good for my child, I can't go against myself. And maybe I should. Maybe in life sometimes we need to surprise ourselves and break the ice and make the impossible possible.
What do you think? What can I do to beat cynophobia?
Thank you very much for reading.
The article and the images are original and mine.
I also afraid of dogs and when my son asking me to have a dog ,I did'nt agreed on him I am thankful thag he understand meπHe loves cat also but I am not a pet lover.