Are you familiar with my title now? Some of my friends telling me that kind of words really fits on me. And you know why? Hmmm maybe this is the right time that you will know the real me. They dont know my real problems in life because they expect me that im totally happy for a having a new family.
Im a product of broken family....
Thats me... Weve been separated with my ex-husband last 2012 when Im in Singapore. He find another woman, so I make the right decision but I ask my son first. My son narrate all the things ive never expect that he will noticed that to his father. His just 5 years old when I left him. He tell me that papa have a gf and thats it. We need to separate so that he will be more happier but my in laws are not agree my decision. I work there for the sake of my family, my ex is quite batugan and chickboy.
Being a mama's boy is not good coz he always depending. For me I cant take it especially the needs of my son that time. I feel shy on that situation that her mother always saved us(di mkapal face ko😁). Im raketera that time like dealer of avon, tupperware, natasha, sundance, mse, dakkie and even the chorizo/tocino. In short ive been breadwinner for 4 years then weve been 6 years with my ex.
New family...
Last 2014 my partner wants us to move with my eldest son coz were living with my parents. Im very happy that time coz we can live in our own. For me family is comittment and by love. It means showing up when they need it most. It means having with each others backs. It means choosing to love each other even on those days when you struggle to like each other. It means never giving up.
As a saying "you will know the person if you will live together". So thats true, the true attitude of my partner comes out. A lots of rules and I cant figure it out.
His rules:
No man can chat you in messenger except with your brothers. (he can access my fb account)
No birthday parties to attend.
No friends friends at all.
How can you imagine that rules? At first I really react that I have a lots of friends and even guys, have it. He can access my fb account so he blocked a lots of my friends and classmates. He replied some messages, he scolded them and blocked them. I feel irritate the first time I know the real him. Actually his a friend of my brothers thats why I know him since Elementary then his in College that time. So 10 years is our age gap. I thought matured guy is an open minded but Im wrong. Im with a jealous type of person and he dont want me to make my own decision. In short I dont have my own privacy. Im honest to him from the start and I trust my fb account to him but I cant believed he will do a such thing that I cant believed it, that he can do it.
So I need to adjust for the sake of our relationship and were running 8 years. Its been many years I suffered his attitude and I always telling him "no one can stay you longer if you will not changed". Sad to say he dont need to change as he said. I always ask him "you dont trust me"? Of course I trust you even in money but the people sorrounds you I dont trust it. Woooowwww I cant accept that answer you know because your not in a right way. Sometimes I just skip when were arguing and it makes me stress.
However, his responsible man and he treat my son as his own. His an ofw for many years but he had a vacation yearly. Everytime he go home I feel Im in a prison and I dont want to be with him all the time especially in the market. Lots of people can call me there and he ask me "is that your boyfriend"? And I said "no, thats my classmate". Thats the scenery if someone talk to to me. Until I bluff him "yes thats my boyfriend, and I laughed.
I dont know why his like that and Im so tired to understand him. To much love will really kill me. I dont have a privacy in my life thats why Im not fond with facebook even in posting. One thing also I cant post my own photo, I mean profile pic. He always make an issue thats why my profile pic is the 3 of us but my timeline is my eldest son.
Authors message:
Act like its all perfect even though inside it really hurts. Im gonna smile like nothings wrong, pretend like everythings all right. Thats me and I can hide the natural me for the sake of my sons. Make it sure your really knows your husband/partner in life.
Its my first time to share about my relationship but hope dont bash and im tired of being martyr already. Maybe its better to be single, less stress.
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Oct. 17,2021 Sunday
5:28pm
Philippines
The fighter mom,
Jeansapphire39
I can tell through you article that he is possessive with you. Mahirap n nmn paliwanagan ang may edad na. Pero kaya mo yan sis, pray lng na mabago niya yong ganong ugali kasi nkakasakal talaga.